nothing
that's what i feel
longingly grieving
trying to heal
every time a blade sinks into my skin
i just tell myself it's a habit slipping in
my heart so torn
so bruised so broken
a numb thud emits from within
i wish i did not know
where broken hearts go
where grief strikes everywhere i go
where longing is, i don't want to be
where pain, is all that i can see
where your lies
is all that i believed
and my eyes have been deceived
by your "love" and "kindness"
oops sorry
forgot to bow down
your "highness"
forgot to notice your shining crown
your smiling frown
when i breakdown
'cause i'm a letdown
ain't i?
sorry for believing your lies
you're fake smiles
and rabid cries
your relentless silence
your vanishing absence
your harsh words
two faced smiles
the tears fall
tears of crocodiles
your smiling lies
battle cries
this betrayal, fresh snow
a blanket of lies
covers what i now know
a heartless bullet
shot through my skull
shook me for months
the voice of a demon
only if i knew
it was you
you're a monster
a breathing statue
no emotions no fear
dead inside
hoarding burning rage,
fueling anger
you're a creature
no human being
a monster
in human skin
my last goodbye,
a last supply
of cuts and scars
that fill the night sky
with endless stars
this is a goodbye
to the monster
i no longer fear
