when it rains
i smile at sky
hugging her until there is no pain
her cries of thunder
course through my heart
and the demons shriek
and then they start
i'm worthless
loveless
useless
i don't need to live
i don't want to live
her tears run to my skin
over my cuts and scars
under my skin
where soul meets heart
her wails of lightening
peirces through me, tears me apart
my heart is in tatters
i am lost
my soul is shattered
my heart defrosts
i cross my heart and hope to die
in my bed i silently cry
no tears are shed
but my skin cries red
like wine
i look for a tendril or a sign
of my emotions
once my sovereigns.
when it snows
i know sky's heart
that once had beat
that no longer starts
her heart has frozen
her soul has risen
she is peaceful
and yet they enjoy her,
when she's gone
spring yet awakens
the world is alive
the flowers bloom
and the bees have hives
yet still i look towards the sky
kissing the air
with a breathless goodbye
