Here is to...

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here is to the home i never had

to the restless vibes

that made me sad

here is to the place where pain always hides

where hurt is the only presence

that dwells in my mind

here is to the home i never had

where pain is peace

and tears collide

here is to the home i never had

where hurt is alive

and happiness dies

here is to the home i wish i had

where life always lives

and never dies

here is to the home i prayed to have

where tears were wiped

and hearts were glad

to be alive

here is to the home i dreamed to have

where love was true

and insults died

here is to the childhood i wished i had

where i made daisy chains with the friends i wish i had

here is to my childhood

that never bloomed

where tears where normal

and my young heart broken

here is to the childhood i never had

where i wished i had smiled instead of cried

where insults were compliments of my empty eyes

here is to the death i wished i had

where peace remained

and my heart stayed sad

here is to the death i wished i had

where tears were rain that doomed the sky

here is to the life i wished i had

where smiles were radiant

and frowns always smiled

here is to the tears i drowned in

pain i lived in

hurt i dreamed in

here is to the life i never had

where i would always smile and never cry

here is to the freedom i wished i lived in

where i spread my wings of pain and hurt and enter the sky

of empty life

here is to me

but not my family

here is to the love i lost

that left my soul also lost

here is to the heart i gave away

never to return any day

here is to my broken body

full of scars

and cuts that became too bloody

here is to chocolate

that helped me forget the lies and pain

but got me worse and worse everyday

here is to the friend i wished was glad

who wished me happy

yet i always cried

here is to the love i never had

the love that made me feel wanted

yet instead made me feel hunted

here is to the world i wished i lived in

the pain i cried in

the love i lost

and the non-existent trust

the world is just not for me

i'd die

but i'm already dead inside

i'd cry but i'm too empty

i'd laugh but for no use

i'd live but I've already lost my bitter battle

won no war

fought every fight

but killed in combat

i'd heal my scars but there was too much of bloodshed

i'd live my life

i just never felt like it

so i'm sorry i'm not perfect just please let me be

and lastly

here is to my apology

i shouldn't feel the need to apologise

but i do

so don't blame me

for the hurt i bring it's not my fault I've changed

and i'm sorry i changed

but you changed too

i'm sorry i don't love you

or any one

i'm sorry but it's true

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