Deceived Heart (Larry Stylinson)

Chapter 56

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Later that night, I was just sitting at a bar taking down shots like they were nothing. After about 5, the dizziness and buzz set in. I took down about 5 more and drank a beer until I was wasted out of my mind. And this was the kind of wasted that you'd do something you'd regret in the morning. And I did exactly just that. 

Since I was in no position to drive, I called a cab. An agonizing 18 minutes later, we were in front of Harry's house. I paid the cab driver and stumbled out of the tiny car. It's time to crash this fucking party.

I knocked on the door, and Niall opened the door while sipping on a beer.

"Hey man," I slurred and threw my arm over Niall's shoulder.

"Woah Louis, you're completely wasted. What are you doing here? Harry said you weren't comin'," my blonde friend said to me.

"People change their mind," I stumbled into the kitchen of Harry's house dragging Niall along with me.

"Just... be careful alright? Don't do anything stupid buddy," Niall said concerned.

"I won't. Don't worry," I rolled my eyes.

I heard yelling from the living room.

"What's going on in there?" I asked Niall.

"They're playing never have I ever. Wanna join."

"Fuck yeah I do!" I clumsily made my way over to the living room and plopped myself down on the couch next to Liam.

In the circle across from me, Harry saw me and I could tell he was shocked. Good. The reaction I was expecting.

"Aye Louis!" Liam yelled drunkenly.

"Hey bud," I patted him on the back.

"We're playing never have I ever. It's my turn right now. You'll go after me," Liam explained.

"Alright mate."

"Never have I ever gone to a strip club," Liam said. Afterwards, a few guys in the circle took a shot. Now it was my turn. This was gonna be good.

"Never have I ever tricked someone into believing I loved them then fucked them over afterwards," I smirked while looking at Harry's direction. He glared at me and took a shot. 

The game went on until it reached Harry. He didn't have anything to say for a while, so somebody had to dare him to do something. A guy named Robin spoke up.

"I dare Harry to go into the closet over there," he gestured to a closet behind Harry, "and stay in there for 10 minutes."

"Easy," Harry smirked.

"With Louis," Robin finished.

The room went silent.

"I don't think that's a good idea," Nick the prick said.

"It's a dare he has to do it," Robin said.

Then everybody in the circle started chanting "do the dare" over and over until Harry finally agreed. I got up from the couch and followed him into the closet. Well this is going to be 10 minutes of absolute hell. 

I tried to sit as far away from Harry as possible in the small closet. There was so much tension I could've suffocated that very moment. I tried not to look at him, but it was too hard. I shot him quick glances when he wasn't looking. Then he just stared at me. I didn't know if I should be uncomfortable or grateful.

"Lou.. I just wanted to say I-" He started.

"Dont. Call. Me. That."

"Don't call you what?"

"Lou. Don't call me Lou," my voice cracked.

"Sorry. Louis, I wanted to say sorry. You know I didn't want to hurt you. I just... I don't know. I still care about you. You know that right?" He tried to reach for my hand, but I jerked it back.

"Well you still did. Do you know how much hell I've been through these past few weeks? Do you know how many tears I've cried? Do you know how much pain I'm going through right now seeing you with that Nick guy, but wishing desperately it's me? Do you know how much I wish that you're still in love with me? Do you know how much it aches being with you in a small space alone and not being able to touch you? Do you kn-" I couldn't finish, because right then he leaned in and kissed me.

It was a sloppy and desperate kiss. Filled with pain and tears yet filled with relief and happiness also. It sobered me up a little bit. It got heated quickly and my hands wound up in his hair tugging at it, while his hands were wrapped around my waist. Maybe this wasn't hell after all. Actually, I was wrong. Harry pushed me away gently.

"I d- I didn't- I'm s-sorry. I didn't m-mean to do that," he flushed. 

"What do you mean? You just did!"

"Well I didn't mean to. I have a boyfriend now. It was wrong. I'm sorry. L-let's just forget about this okay?"

"I will. If you just answer 2 questions."

"Okay. What are they?" He looked nervous. We were still sitting way too close to each other. I could feel his warm breath on my face.

"The first question is, are you happier with Nick than you were with me?" I asked without looking at him. He took a while to respond, but eventually he did.

"N-no," he uttered.

"The second question is, are you still in love with me?" I asked hoping he would say what I wanted to hear.

"No," he looked away.

"That's all I wanted to know," I said.

I stood up and opened the closet door. I ran out before I started crying like a fucking baby in front of everyone.

"Hey! The 10 minutes aren't up yet!" Robin yelled, but I didn't care.

Because that one word. That one no. It broke me. It broke me even more than I already was. And I couldn't take it any longer.

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