To heal a dying heart

Missing your prayers on purpose! </3

Surah Al-Maun, Verse 4:

فَوَيْلٌ لِّلْمُصَلِّينَ

So woe to the praying ones,

(English - Shakir)

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Surah Al-Maun, Verse 5:

الَّذِينَ هُمْ عَن صَلَاتِهِمْ سَاهُونَ

Who are unmindful of their prayers,

(English - Shakir)

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Sara's POV:

After my walkout two days ago. I have been avoiding Zain, Mahra and Fatima like the plague. I know I'm being unfair. But who cares life is unfair.>.< They can go marry whoever they want. See if I care.

Like common consulting your siblings on your life's most important decision. Is that too much to ask? Plus why haven't my parents scolded the hell out of him? I'm sure if I went away and came back with a husband mom and dad would scold me to no end. They won't kill me, no way. They love me too much. <3 Alhamdulillah for awesome parents!<3

Fatima is in her room. I heard her recitation before Zuhr. Its almost Asr now, she must be up and praying. I should check on her. She has been awfully quiet. She'll kill me if I leave her sleeping and she misses her prayer. But oh Allah I seriously don't want to face her. What if she tries to coax me into accepting Mahra?

Ughh she will succeed if she tries. Even though I put up a rude front. I simply cannot ignore her pleading. The baby faced people and their pleading. Like tell me what do you do if: your sister who is three years your senior ( but looks three years younger than you</3) decides to use the puppy dog eyes on you? Plus she has a small,innocent face that just melts all your anger away?

Here's what I do! I forgive her right away but don't show it! I go and shout at her. Making her think I'm still angry but in reality I have forgiven her already! I am staying on my bed. Oh Allah do forgive me for missing the prayer! I'll make up for it tomorrow with Asr.

I had dozed off for two hours or so when I heard a loud bang. I sat up with a jerk.

" What? Where? Who? I didn't do anything!!"

I shouted like an idiot. It took a while for my eyes to take in Fatima's form. She didn't look like her usual gentle self. She was angry-very angry. I felt her hand grab at my shoulder roughly.

" WHY DIDN'T YOU WAKE ME?"

I thought she would start hitting me. But she collapsed beside me. She was crying!

" I missed two prayers! Sara I missed Asr and Maghrib!"

" Let's go and offer the qaza prayers."

" It won't be the same. And its all YOUR FAULT!"

Suddenly I didn't feel so lazy anymore. I grabbed her hand and guided her to her washroom. While I went to mine. I did the wudu( ablution). I felt so ashamed of myself! Here was I ,who had been up and aware. I had missed the prayers on purpose!

Then there was Fatima! She had been asleep. She hadn't missed her prayers on purpose! Still she felt remorseful. While I chilled out! Even if I did pray I wasn't very mindful of it. I treated praying as if it was just an exercise! </3

I got back to her. We went to the drawing room in silence. We prayed the qaza for both prayers. She was sitting with her face in her hands. I am sure she was asking Allah for forgiveness. She was sobbing. I couldn't take it anymore I grabbed at her hands roughly and threw myself at her. I embraced her. She embraced me back.

" Fatima why are you sobbing when yo-you didn't miss the prayers on purpose?" I asked her between sobs.

" Sara because I love Allah! I can't accept the fact that I spent so many hours without talking to my Allah! How could I do that? Allah is so kind to me how could I d-do tha-that??!"

I felt as if I had been slapped on my face-HARD. I cried my heart out! I didn't know how to stop. I felt as of I were the most sinful person on earth.

" Fatima what should I do? I missed the prayers on purpose!"

"Sh-shh quiet down first."

She thumped me on my back. I snugged closer to her. She helped me calm down. She reached for her tablet an-and I heard the most heart touching recitation ever! It was surah Mariam<3 So beautiful Ma shaa Allah! Surah Mariam always puts me to sleep<3<3 for it relaxes me. This time was no exception.

Surah Maryam, Verse 30:

قَالَ إِنِّي عَبْدُ اللَّهِ آتَانِيَ الْكِتَابَ وَجَعَلَنِي نَبِيًّا

He said: Surely I am a servant of Allah; He has given me the Book and made me a prophet;

(English - Shakir)

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http://ahlejannat.wordpress.com/2007/08/13/warning-for-missing-prayers-namaz/