Vertigo

Never Yours

How do you lose something that was never yours?
How do you mourn over something that wasn't your loss?
How do you forget when all you  can do is remember?
Chilled to the bone and it's not even December.
You used to be my universe.
Some things I wish I could simply reverse.
Each and every word you spoke seemed rehearsed.
But i fell for it all.
Late at night I'm roaming in these empty halls.
There's a photo of you on every wall.
Taking them off won't make any difference they're etched in my mind.
You left your mark everywhere. Oh, how I wish I was blind.
But I can promise you that there'll be a time where you wish you could rewind.
For I'll be the person you wish you could find.
But it'll be too late.
I wasn't meant to be yours, a sick twist of fate.
There is no love and there is no soulmate.
And even if there was since when were we so fortunate?
After you left I've started to hallucinate.
My illusions are destroyed by the bitter-sweet reality .
I still wish you'd come back but the surreality of it all.
Is enough to shake some sense in to me.
For I tend to forget that there's no more "we"
A life without you I'd always failed to see.
Now living it makes me want to weep.
I believed that you made promises to keep.
But here i am in these empty streets reminiscing and thinking what all of it was for?
In the end how do you lose something that was never yours?