You're Only Happy When I'm Wasted. [All Time Low Fanfiction]

That's Just The Way It Goes.

Good job, you big dick. You just lost it.

I could feel my head running in circles as I failed another attempt to keep my body straight. I could feel nausea slowly creeping its way in. I staggered and my eyes shot up as I wached the girl's eyes widen in shock.

The girl with raven-black hair and deep, hazel eyes.

Stella.

Tay Jardine's sister. I met her the first time when Tay invited us over on their house while we were having a tour on New York for We Are In The Crowd's song, 'Kiss Me Again.'. They wanted me to feature in it.

Upon entering their house, my eyes immediately fell on her. She was sitting by the windowsill of their living room, completely unaware of our presence. When Tay called her attention, her deep, light hazel eyes fell on us -- and she blushed. It was so cute that I couldn't resist talking to her while I was there. Her light, shy voice always amused me, and I always lost track of everything else.

That time, Lisa and I were on the verge of breaking up. Jack and the others didn't seem to notice it, but I became a wreck. I was miserable. I snuck out of bars every night and got myself so drunk that I couldn't go back to the tour bus or at home. Whenever they asked where I was, I'd always say I was 'out', or doing an errand for some random guy named Michael. That very moment that Stella and I talked, she gave me hope. She made me forget about Lisa even just for awhile. I limited myself from drinking and I was less broken by the time that my relationship with Lisa completely turned into dust. I had hope on meeting this girl I met at the Jardine's again. I had hope of seeing Stella again.

And now that I had the chance to get to know her better, I found out that she was no different from me, and did the same things I did just to forget the pain. I saw myself in Stella. Sure, she might be a loud, difficult, rude little idiot but despite this, I couldn't help but cherish her. I couldn't help but plunge myself into this shit she's going through. As time passed, I could see that I could already heal her wounds, but I never noticed how she healed mine when Lisa came here to get together with me again.

So, why can't she see it?

Why can't she see that what's making me down was that ever since Zack, Rian and Jack came here, all she did was spend her time with Jack? Why can't she see that I wanted to have fun with her, like she does with Jack? Why can't she see that all I ever wanted was to be close to her? Why can't she see that I wanted her all to myself? Can't she see that that's the reason why I refused to come with the band back home? And speaking of Jack, why did he have to return with the guys here? Because widdle Alex might get lonely?

Oh, God. What the fuck am I saying?

You're losing it, bitch. Think godfuckingdamn straight. I shouldn't have said that. I'm happy that the guys missed me. Really, I am. And I missed Zack, Jack and Rian, too. And besides, Jack is my bestfriend. Why am I saying all of this shit? Jack was the one who helped me when I was Baltimore's Biggest Loser. Jack was the one who helped me get through hard times. Without him, there's no Alex Gaskarth of All Time Low. I wouldn't be this crazy and happy if it wasn't for him. I better remind myself to eat every Mickey Mouse Vinny has the next time I say all this bullshit.

Anyways.

I knew perfectly clear why I was feeling this way. But why can't Stella see it?

Why can't she see that I'm so in love with her?

I could feel the alcohol working inside my head. All of this shit was turning me into a mess. Stella's right in front of me, and even if I fucking smell like alcohol, I think it's already time.

It's time I tell her the truth.

-x-

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This chapter shows Alex's point of view. What do you think of it? :/

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