Suicidal Thoughts

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Ava

I pulled Jessica to the dance floor once I heard the beat come on. It was only a matter of time before the beat dropped so we hurried to the middle.

My hair was good and I been doing a lot so that's good. I brought a hair tie just in case I needed it.

"You telling me you love me but I know you don't
You telling me you want me but I want you more
You wanna kiss and hug me I just want yo soul
You telling me you need me but I need you girl I got you,
But do you got me baby I would ride for you but would you ride for me
Baby I would die for you, but would you die for me look me in my eyes and see how much you mean to me
You tell me that you love me, but I know you don't
You tell me that you want me but I want you more
You wanna kiss and hug me, I just want yo soul
You tell me that you need me but babygirl I need you more."

"Girl I know you popping but wit me you get it on
I put you in designer just so you can take it off
I turn my phone off because I know it turns you on
I got a lot of money baby I just need ya love!"

"You know that you are mine girl you know you on my mind girl
Thanks blowing up my line girl, they tryna waste my time girl
But I ain't got no time girl no time to be wasting
Destined for the greatness baby I can taste it!"

"Do you really love me so, tell me cause I need to know
Do you really care enough, cause I am really in love, GIRLLLLLL!"

"You telling me you love me but I know you don't
You telling me you want me but I want you more
You wanna kiss and hug me I just want yo soul
You telling me you need me but I need you girl I got you,
But do you got me baby I would ride for you but would you ride for me
Baby I would die for you, but would you die for me look me in my eyes and see how much you mean to me
You tell me that you love me, but I know you don't
You tell me that you want me but I want you more
You wanna kiss and hug me, I just want yo soul
You tell me that you need me but babygirl I need you more."

"They tryna waste my time, you know you on my mind
Do you wanna be my, be my valentine, girl."

The song slowly drifted off and me and Jess looked at each other. We hugged each other and pulled out our phones recording each other.

Jess stuck her middl finger up and stuck out her tongue as I recorded her.

"Girl you fool," I laughed at her.

"And you crazy," she said. I shrugged my shoulders and we danced around.

Bodak Yellow's beat came on and everybody started oh'ing in the gym. Me and Jess recoded ourselves on my snap as the beat dropped.

"Say lil bitch you can't fuck wit me if you wanted to
These expensive these is red bottoms these is bloody shoes
Hit the store I can get em both ion wanna choose
And I'm quick cut a nigga off so don't get comfortable."

"Look ion dance now I make money moves
Said ion gotta dance I make money moves
If I see you and ion speak that mean ion fuck with you
I'm a boss you a worker bitch I make bloody moves."

"Now she say she gone do what to who let's found out and see
Cardi B you know where I'm at you know where I be
You in the club just to party I'm there I get paid a fee
I be in and out them banks so much I know they tired of me."

"Honestly don't give a fuck bout who ain't fond of me
Drop two mixtapes in six months what bitch working as hard as me
I don't bother wit these hoes don't let these hoes bother me
They see pictures they say goals bitch I'm who they tryna be."