Okay so I have weekly meetings with a counselor and sometimes we have longer ones with my mom as well.
We talked about my "issue" and
Well
Long story short
I got a god-awful nosebleed from the stress and my mom was crying and that made me cry
The whole thing was a mess
She was worried about what would happen if my grandmother found out which is something I thINK ABOUT EVERY SINGLE DAY.
And I stress about it silently instead of bothering her.
This is the main reason why I haven't spoken about this in a very long time.
But I need to try at least one more time.
Because it hurts to hide.
If I basically go missing from Wattpad and stuff, then you know what happened. If this happens, she grounded me again and I won't be on the internet for a while. If this happens, I'm sorry.
If this doesn't happen, I'll keep you updated.
She gets home in three hours, I'll speak to her in about four so she can de-stress first. Stress isn't a good factor to begin with.