Save me ~ Mikey Way x Reader

XIV ~ Returning The Favor

"Y/n, I'm not a good person. I'm an addict. I'm an alcoholic. I'm a depressed sac of shit." 

"So what? You have your flaws. We all do. It's what makes us people." I said while turning the corner. The park was in sight. Gerard stayed silent. I didn't want to force him to talk about anything right now because hes probably mentally a wreck right now. But at some point I was going to make him talk. Maybe just not tonight.

We approached the park and followed a trail to a playground. I led Gerard over to the swings and sat down in one. He looked hesitant, but soon followed and sat in the one next to me. Gee let himself slightly rock back and forth on the swing.

"The stars are really visible tonight." Gee said while looking up a the sky. He was right. They were clear as day. 

"Yeah, you never really realize how many there are until they are this clear." I added. Gerard chuckled to himself a bit and shook his head.

"What?" I asked with a small smile.

"When Mikey and I were younger, we used to name the stars. But we named a few with odd names." 

"Which one did you name?" I looked over at Gerard whos eyes were still locked on the stars.

"The North Star is named Big Betty." Gee laughed, "The end of the big dipper is Elle, the middle of Orion's belt if Helena." Gerard seemed to be lost in the stars.

"You know, Patrick and I used to sneak into the planetarium as kids and mess with the machine that made the stars appear since we couldn't see them well in the city." I said, recalling at least 5 different times we almost got caught but found good places to hide. 

"Were you and Patrick close as kids?" Gerard asked causing me to bring my attention from the sky, back down to him. He was looking at me seriously.

"Hell yeah we were. Patrick is two years old than me so hes always been my over protective older brother. He ran away from home when he was sixteen because of our parents constant fighting. Patrick left a letter somewhere only I would find it. He said that he wanted to take me with him but he was afraid he couldn't take care of me." I explained. Gerard seemed to be sad again. I shouldn't have gone into depth. Shit.

"I'm sorry y/n." Gerard said after a few moments of silence.

"It's fine. We've been keeping in touch since the party so-"

"No, about what I did earlier." Gerard cut me off while hanging his head. 

I got up from my swing and knelt in the mulch beside Gee's swing. I placed my hand on his knee and tried to catch his gaze.

"We're going to get you through this Gerard. I promise. Are you still using the Xanax?" I asked. He nodded his head.

"And cocaine."

Oh.

Fuck.

"Cocaine?" I asked, stunned. Gerard took a deep breath and nodded his head once again. 

"Oh boy." I sighed. I felt a tear fall on my hand. Gerard was crying again.

"I'm so sorry." Gerard cried as he wrapped his arms around me swiftly. I held onto him once again and let him let it all out again. 

"You're gonna surpass this, I know you will. I'm gonna help you, Frank's gonna help you. We're all going to help you Gee. We love you." I said while Gerard continued to cry into my shoulder.

"I l-love you y/n." Gee hiccuped. 

"I love you too Gee." Of course I meant it in a friendly way. I hope Gee meant it in a friendly way, but that's besides the point. Gee calmed down much quicker this time.