Save me ~ Mikey Way x Reader

V ~ Emotionless. Broken.

"I'm not letting you go again. I promise. Never again." I said as I felt tears swell up in my eyes. Y/n refused to give up. She kept pushing and squirming against me. Thankfully, Ray and the guys pulled up on the road in front of y/n and I. 

"Mikey let me go! Let me die!" Y/n screamed out. "I want to die! Just let... let me go!" Hearing her say those words made the lump in my throat grow even more. 'I want to die' 'let me die'. I did this to her. I was full on crying now.

"Y/n... I'm so sorry. But I'm not letting you go. I love you too much, okay? I fucking love you!" I cried. I rested my forehead on the top of her head to hide my tears. As soon as I said that I felt a heavier tension in the air.

"G-Gee. Come help me." I mumbled, still with my head resting on hers. Y/n continued to fight as Gerard picked her up to put her in the bed of the truck. I jumped in and took her from him. I leaned up against the back of the cab with y/n still firmly gripped in my arms. Her fighting slowed down as she lost energy. Now she was softly pushing against me and crying. No matter how tired I got, I refused to let her go. 

The whole ride home, I kept y/n in my arms as tight as I could. Eventually she gave up and just laid there. Emotionless. It's like shes broken. Her face didn't show any form of emotion. Not sad. Not angry. Not scared. Just. Blank.

Finally we arrived back home. Y/n was awake but still practically lifeless. I carried her inside and laid her on my bed. I tucked her in and left after kissing her forehead. She didn't react. Just laid there with her eyes half-open.

I walked out into the living room to be greeted by a thick tension. I sat on the arm chair and put my head into my hand. 

"She's broken." I said quietly, but loud enough for all them to hear.

"What do you mean?" Gerard asked with a tinge of fear in his voice.

"You saw her. She had no emotion left in her. It's like she's permanently zoned out." I explained. I felt the tears come back. "I did this to her."

"No you didn't Mikey. You know she was like this before. It just wan't this bad." Gee said trying to calm me down.

"She was at her breaking point Gee. I pushed her over it." 

We continued to sit there in silence until Gee stood up.

"Okay. I'm gonna go see if I can talk to her." Gee said as he walked into my room. God I hope he can get something out of her.

~Gerard's POV~

I walked into Mikey's room to see that y/n is still awake. She didn't flinch when I opened the door. She just continued to stare blankly at the wall in front of her. 

"Hey n/n. It's me. Gee." I said while sitting on the foot of her bed. I noticed her foot was slightly tapping. "Y/n, please talk to me." 

Y/n didn't respond, but the tapping of her foot increased.

"Can you say anything?" I asked. Her lips slightly parted but then shut. It's like she was hesitating.

"They're back." She finally said. I was shocked that she said anything. I pulled the blanket off of her and sat her up right so that we're eye to eye.

"Who's back?" I asked nervously.

"The voices." Y/n replied. 

"The voices that want you to kill yourself?" I continued to ask. She slowly nodded her head.

"When did they leave first?" 

"They stopped when I was in the back of your car with Mikey that night." 

"And when did they come back?" It's starting to make sense.

"When I ran out of the arcade."

"When you were away from Mikey." I added. She nodded again. "Did they ever come back over the past week?"

"Once."

"When?"

"On my walk."

"When you were away from Mikey." I repeated. Y/n looked up at me. Her blank expression still remaining but with a slight bit of realization. 

"Are they here now?" I asked. She nodded her head. "I'll be back."

I got off of the bed and walked back into the living room.

"I heard talking. Did she say anything?" Mikey asked while jolting up from his seat.

"She needs you." I told him.

"She asked for me?" Mikey said with hope in his voice.

"No. But she needs you." I repeated. He just nodded and walked in.

~Y/n's POV~ 

'Just give up already'

'Did you not hear him? He doesn't want you'

'He wanted you to leave'

'He came back though' I replied to them mentally.

'Out of pity'

'Shit, he's back'

I was alone in my head once again as the bedroom door opened to show a stressed Mikey.

"Y/n?" He asked. I wanted to respond to him but I was afraid what they would do if I were to respond. But Gerard did make a good point. They seem to disappear when I'm with Mikey. 

"Gee said you need me." Mikey said while walking over to me. I nodded my head slightly. This seemed to give Mikey some sort of joy to see me responsive in some way.

"What's up?" He asked while kneeling by my side. I felt a tear form in my eye seeing him so torn up over me.

"They leave when you're here." I said. Mikey's eye lit up at the sound of my voice but still wore a frown.

"Th-the voices?" Mikey stuttered. I nod my head once again.

"I-I need you Mikey." I said with a tear falling. With the voices gone, I feel more free. I feel like I can feel without being scared. I let my blank face fill with a mix of emotions. From sad, to relief, to confused, and back to sad.

"I'm so glad to hear you say that." Mikey said as he pulled me into a hug. Being in his arms made the waterworks come back. I let everything out as did he. 

After a few minutes of letting it all out and Mikey apologizing a million times, we both finally calmed down. I yawned as I checked the time. 11 pm. Damn was I tired.

"Hey Mikes." I said to Mikey. He was laying on the bed with his head in my lap.

"Yes n/n?" He replied looking up at me.

"I'm pretty tired. Is it okay if I go to bed?" I said while stroking his arm. He sat up and kissed my cheek.

"Of course you can." Mikey answered while pulling me down by his side under the blankets. The door was already shut and I was too tired to care about the lights being on. I cuddled up against Mikey and laid my head on his chest. I let myself fall asleep to the steady beat of Mikey Way's heartbeat.

"I love you y/n." Mikey whispered to me before I fell asleep.

"I love you too Mikey."