I have a confession: I kind of abandoned Zarry after Zayn left the band and I'd got it out of my system by writing Deep. This is why the sequel to Deep never got finished. I was so upset; and I had little interest in 1D without new Zarry to watch. So I didn't listen to much of Made in the AM.
That was my first mistake.
I followed Zayn's solo career because I loved the music he was making much more than 1D and more than Harry's, when it eventually came out. But I didn't "cyberstalk" him, like I had before. Without a regular zarry fix I was only really interested in the music. And Zayn's music I loved. I knew most of Zayn's lyrics were intense – searing and honest. But - at the time – some of the lyrics seemed a bit juvenile, some too gangsta for me and some just incomprehensible.
I should make it clear that I'm not shocked by explicit content: I love the Weeknd, Nicki Minaj, Chris Brown etc. It wasn't anything like that that bothered me. I think for me the central problem was that I thought Zayn was (mainly) singing about women. And in that context some of the lyrics sounded a bit sexist – something I didn't really expect from Zayn. The lyrics of Pillowtalk and TiO, for example. But I was prepared to overlook it because I liked the music.
I wasn't sure who Zayn was singing about in each song – I thought some of the words maybe were about Harry – but I honestly didn't think Zayn would sing about feelings for a man and certainly not about Zarry if anything had happened between them. None of that mattered to me: the incredible vocals and beautiful music made up for it.
What I didn't know was that I wasn't really listening.
That was my second mistake.
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Cracking the Zarry Code - how Deep is real.
FanfictionYou don't need a sequel to Deep. Here's why. PS. The story of "real" Zarry is better than anything on Netflix. NB this is an interpretation of events and artistic works. It is opinion only. Copyright 2017. All rights reserved. No reproduction o...