An Italian's Virgin Escort (IRS Book 1)

Chapter 48

"Niccolo, Brother, Nothing will happen to Phoebe or the babies. They'll be completely fine and healthy. Just calm down." I tried to assure him but in-turn I'm getting anxious myself.

"No, Sienna, you don't understand. I can't live without her. I would die the next second if something happened to her. Right now she is fighting for her and our baby's life and I'm sitting here unable to do anything. I hate myself. I wish I was the one to bear the pain instead of her."

I know whatever we say right now cannot calm Niccolo and seeing him beating himself for everything, only healthy Phoebe and the babies can get him out of this state.

We are waiting for the doctor to finish the operation from one and half hour and every passing minute is like a challenge for us. After what seemed like an hour later, doctor got out of the operating room taking off his nose mask and gloves. We immediately hurried to him, "Dr. Greene, how's Phoebe?" Niccolo question with fear lines forming on his face.

"Mr. Russo, Mrs. Phoebe Russo is alright. It was a very tough surgery and we could only save mother or the babies, so – " He stopped in the mid hesitating how to continue further.

No God, Please. Don't do this. Not to Phoebe. Not to the baby.

"What do you mean you could only save one? What the hell are you talking?" Niccolo shouted, pulling the doctor by his collar. I tried to calm him down but I know it was no use right now. I too, am on the verge of break down right now.

"Calm down, Mr. Russo. Phoebe is fine now. She was carrying triplets but due to many complications, we could only save two of them. I'm very sorry to say but we could only save two boys of triplets and we couldn't save the baby girl. We shifted both the babies to the incubators for intensive care for 48 hours. Your wife is under sleeping medicine right now and will wake up in about an hour."

Doctor's words hit us like a tsunami. Niccolo immediately fell on his knees and howled in pain with the loss of one of his child. He always wanted a daughter and now that his daughter is no more, I can't even imagine how he is feeling.

How can this happen to good people only? Bad people always get to live happy their whole lives but why only good and honest people pay the price of living loyally?

Why is this world so unfair to the people like Phoebe, like Niccolo, like me?

How can the nature be so cruel?

Grandma sat beside Niccolo and did not try to console him. She knew that he need to let it out to take care of Phoebe. She knew how it feels to loose a child. Tears rolled down from my eyes like stormy night. Emotions clashing with each other like thunders and all the thought going haywire.

"I should've taken care of her more. I lost my daughter, God. I regret not taking better care of her. I regret everything. Now I am paying the price after I lost my baby girl." Niccolo cried out.

I regret!

Paying the price!

His words hit me hard. I suddenly found myself in his place.

Regret?

Do I want to regret about anything in future?

If I were in his lover's place, then I would've forgiven him already...

Alina's words knocked the air out of my lungs.

Leonardo...!

I know he is paying for the wrongs he has done. Albeit, I would hate to consider but he did soften my heart with everything he has been doing from these two years.

I regret!

Do I? Will I?

Every bad things I experienced suddenly started to play around me. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't move. I couldn't stop it.

Many haunting what if's started hunting my conscience.

Niccolo immediately bolted towards Phoebe's room and found her already crying in pain of loosing their baby girl. Niccolo immediately put on a brave façade to console and support Phoebe but I know how hard he is trying not to cry with her. He consoled as if nothing happened as if he is not mourning for their loss. He told that her that they both should be strong for the new born twins and the twins waiting at home.

Grandma left to the incubators to look at the new additions to the family and I just sat outside the room grieving for their immense loss.

Not long after, Leonardo got there with striding steps. Seeing him suddenly woke those questions again.

Is this the life that I wanted?

Waiting for someone to feel pain! Looking out to hurt someone?

Is this really how I want to live? Thinking about future regrets?

I realized that all my questions are the answers themselves. I realized life is too short to expect something from another person. I realized that no matter what and how I am, I'm still tied to my past. I realized that I'm the still old Sienna who is longing for acceptance and I realized I don't want to put my expectations on anything or anyone.

"I forgive you" Words blurted out of my mouth on their own accordance.

AND I KNOW I DON'T REGRET THIS.

*****

Hello Sweeties,

How are you all. Hope you are all doing well.

The next chapter is up and wish you all enjoy it.

Do you think Sienna did right to forgive Leonardo?

How do you feel about Phoebe and Niccolo's loss?

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Lots of Love

Lady Prim