look what you made me do • spinoff to jdm

lil note pls read

so lately i've been going through a bit of funk.

i don't know if it's because school has just been the worst (i finish on monday y'all bless up) or if it's family stuff, but every time i sit down to write, i just can't.

i don't know i can't really describe it but it's like the words can never come to me, which usually isn't the case. usually i can just write anywhere. in the car, on the bus, at home, it's never really mattered.

but lately it's just stopped. my inspiration is just completely gone and i know i owe y'all this big explanation about how or why i was gone for so long but it's really because i just can't write.

it's not even just this story. when i sit down to write other stories i just can't. it feels wrong for some reason. i thought it would be a temporary thing because this has happened to me before but it has stuck for months and it's the worst.

and it honestly sucks because i want to write i really do i think it's what i was born to do, but i can't. it just feels like everything i thought i could do has been stripped away from me. i can't even open this app anymore it hurts looking at everything knowing i just physically can't.

so i honestly don't know where this leaves everything. i know i owe you guys this story i want to finish it but until i have the urge to write again, to not fair to you guys to write something that I don't like.

i go off to camp next week for a month, and hopefully i'll my mojo back there, but who knows, this could last forever. and that's honestly so scary because writing has always been an escape for me, a way to forget about the real world for a few hours and create my own.

that's what joining dance moms was really about for me. it was my fantasy because i had no friends in real life so i put myself into my favorite tv show and dreamed what it would be like. and i can honestly say without jdm that my life would be completely different. i have great friends now but i don't think it would've been possible without that sorry because it helped me grow up.

so yeah, this whole situation really fucking sucks and the second i get my mojo back i'll be reaching for my phone.

-anna