Friends With Benefits

Chapter 39

Just when I thought everything was going to be okay everything was taken away for me. My life, career, education, baby and Jake.

I was able to recover from my kidnapping incident when I was 10. My Nana was killed in front of me just for the heck of it. I never wanted to be in that situation again, but just a few weeks ago, I was in that position again.

"I need you to clam down, Angel."

His soft words echoed in my mind, making me cry harder. Why am I even thinking about him?

Just when I thought I was just imagining stuffs, a warm hand was placed on my arm.

"Angel, please."

It was like somebody had placed a plug on my eyes. My head turned abruptly too get a sight on who was talking.

"Jake?"

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It was hard to breathe. Not literally but with the air being so polluted by awkwardness was making me feel like it was hard to breathe.

I played with my fingers as I watched Jake from the corner of my eyes.

He was seated on the white chair just a fee meters away from my bed. His elbows were placed on his knees as he played with something in his hands. I couldn't see what he was holding though.

My heart pumped like it was being rammed by a boxer against my chest as I pictured Jake's arms wrapped around me.

When he walked in the room and saw me crying he tried to calm me down. Even with the known issue between us he wrapped his arms around me like he was protecting me. He let me cry on his black shirt not even caring if it was starting to soak.

Jake snapped me out of my mental review of what happened earlier by a sigh.

I looked at him with curious eyes.

"Do you hate me?" He silently asked.

It was as if he was afraid of what I was going to say.

The words seemed to pass my tongue without even me uttering a word.

I was perfectly aware that nothing came out, so instead I shook my head.

It was pretty obvious that it was all it took to make the fear in Jake's eyes be replaced with relief. Though there was still a tinge of pain.

What was I even thinking? I'm a what now? A freaking emotion reader?

A small smiled was painted on Jake's face. If I wasn't mistaken there were tears brimming his eyes.

He slowly stood up from his chair with his right hand fisted. He walked towards me.

"That's all I need," he whispered.

What shocked me was what he did next. He leaned down against me with his eyes closed.

I anticipated his lips on my lips but it never came. What I got was his lips on my forehead. But that doesn't mean it didn't give me those dinosaurs in my stomach as they riot in there.

He leant his forehead against mine with his hands on either of my cheeks.

Kiss me, Jake! Kiss me, Jake! I chanted in my head.

But the kiss never came.

"There are a lot of things I want to say and do to you, but I can't. I want to make this easy, Angel. I hope someday, you'll be able to forgive me, my love."

He planted one last longing kiss on my forehead and then stood up. His right hand made it's way to mine and he slipped a cold metal in my hand. As he fully stood on his level he didn't spare me one last look nor a glance. Instead he quickly turned around and made me lose sight of him immediately.