Thoughts And Excerpts. || #Wattys2018

94: Perfect

All this time I thought our friendship wasn't ment to be...

And now I'm too tired to fight it.

Its not anger.

Its pain...

I've wasted my tears on you.

I've cried oceans for you.

Even when the voices said that you weren't worth it...

But I can't help it.

I keep crying because I feel like this is all my fault...

I'm happy that you made new friends...

I really am.

Another chance for a person to be your perfect friend.

Something that I couldn't be.

I wish I could move on.

But I can't your still in the back of my mind at all times and I don't think you'll ever go away.

I always hear your voice trying to perfect me even tho we don't talk anymore...

Its always saying things like...

'Don't buy that'

'Don't wear that'

'Don't eat that'

Perfect...

I can't be.

Every tear I shed because of you is painful... I'm sore.

But if goodbye is what you want then goodbye is what your going to get.

I want my soul to be free.

But just know that whenever your tears turn into rivers...

I'll be there waiting for you with an umbrella over your head.

My arms will be wide open so just run into them.

You've changed me...

You've made me anxious and scared to be myself.

Hope your happy.

I'm not perfect...