Thoughts And Excerpts. || #Wattys2018

80: All alone.

You hurt me.

You really hurt me.

And it's all because I let you in.

I gave you everything...

My heart,

My soul,

My love...

Yet you just through them to the ground, stomped on them, shattered them, and treated them like they're worthless...

And to everyone they are...

But out of all people I thought you would understand.

You're the first to do that in a very long time...

I thought you'd care...

I thought you'd understand...

I thought you were different.

I helped you when you needed help...

I was walking by your side...

In your darkest days.

You said you'll always love me,

You'll always care,

That you'll always be there.

But now you choose to run away.

And hide from me.

Is it because your ashamed of what you done to me?

Is it because you realised what you done to me?

Now you won't help me in the dark...

I need help.

I'm blind without you.

You lead me through but only a quarter of the way.

Then its like you turned off all the lights.

You let my hand go.

You walked away.

But its fine...

You must be happier now.

I never deserved you.

I never deserved anyone...

I'm all alone again.

Laying down,

Closing my eyes and hoping they will never reopen...

But the memories are flooding in once more.

That day where you told me you'd never let me go...

I thought you loved me...

Even as a friend.

But I was stupid.

How could anyone love me when I don't even love myself?

It hurts to see you smile...

Its so bright.

Even stars wish to be that bright.

The worst part of seeing it?

I know its not me who put that bright smile on your face.

We're not best friends anymore.

You left me...

You and that stupid smile left me.

All alone.

But I hope you happy.