Summer love

- Chapter 17 -

Three days had gone by since I told Jade about me moving to Miami for college and we hadn't spoken since then. Even though I tried to look happy and have fun with Cindy, I couldn't stop thinking on how I could do it to talk to Jade. I had tried to call her a few times and she either hung up or just didn't pick up.

The days were going by and I was less than two weeks away from ending the summer, coming back home and short after moving to United States.

It was Monday. I was so sleepy. Last night I had skyped with mum and told her all about Jade breaking up with me and how we hadn't talked since then. After that, we also started to apply for a dorm near the college and try to get in contact with the university as well to know more about it. So far, I was leaving Brighton by the end of August and I would be starting in Miami around the 7th of September, but of course I would have to leave a couple days before to set in before starting.

Because of that though, I went to sleep at 2am, first because I spent hours talking with my mum to try to get things done and then because I couldn't sleep thinking about all that was coming.

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As soon as I left Cindy at school, I came back home and jumped back into bed. I thought I would fall asleep again but even if I had slept only 4 hours, my body was not in the mood to sleep now, so I got up and started doing some house work Amber told me to do. When I was about to vacuum the floor, I heard a knock on the door.

I opened it, not sure who it could be. My heart almost stopped when I saw Jade. She was not happy, that for sure, but she didn't look mad. She just seemed sad.

-       Can we talk? – she asked with a deep voice

-       Yes... - I said a bit confused as I was not sure if she came to scream at me or to fix things

We got in and this time we went to the kitchen, as the living room was a bit of a mess and one of the things I had to work with this morning, but hadn't yet.

-       So, about what you said, I was thinking... - she started as soon as she sat down – we should break up – she said with a flat tone

-       Aren't we over yet? You left that clear – I said, not sad anymore, just dealing with it

-       That's how much you care about us? – she asked realizing my lack of feelings

-       Excuse me? – I said starting to get mad – you are the one who left the house three days ago and have not talked to me since then, except to remember me we are over! – I said containing myself not to scare her with my madness

-       You never told me about a huge detail of your future! – she responded back

-       I told you I forgot! I had many things going on in my mind I barely remembered I had applied for it! – I snapped

-       Okay, I didn't come here to argue again, let's breath and talk – she said looking at me

Even if right now I just felt like shouting and screaming at her, I thought her idea was better, so I sat down and tried to look chilled, even if I was red in anger.

-       Look, what I meant is, that I haven't talked to you in three days because I was thinking about us – and crying, let's be real – and I just didn't want to talk to you without a solution or something – she started – it just didn't make sense to me – she added

-       Would have been nice knowing you didn't hate me – I let out, again, emotionless

-       I know, but I was mad at you and wanted to wait, not to explode and make things worse – she explained me – so... I don't want us to break up, trust me, but do you have a better idea? – she asked looking hopeful