Random Drop

14 (Part l)

A warm breeze blew through the car as quiet music played in the background. I smiled as he pulled up. Turning to me, his eyes glint in the low moonlight.

'I've missed you' He says reaching over, he brushes some hair from my forehead.

'I've missed you too' I smile, I touch his muscular arm and he leans in, the hairs on the back of my neck rise, my eyes widen as I look pass him.

A tall figure stands behind him, a mask covers his face, he raises something.

'Times up Jose' The figure snarls, a loud bang goes off, and Jose slumps forwards. Blood splatters my face, I scream 'Jose? Jose?' I shake him, but get no response, blood dribbles down the back of his neck. That was the day my life changed and music died....... 

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People still stare, I can't help it, so I just look down and ignore them. Going back to school after his death was a nightmare, even one year on, people still whisper and stare, they move out of my way, which helps a bit, but it can't bring him back. "Why was it him? Why him of all people, god when I find the guy who did it, he will wish he was never born. " I feel my blood boil in anger, but remember I'm only a kid. I sigh and pick up my school bag, the teacher motions for me to come over to her desk. 'Miss Jackson, you need to stop building a wall, let people help you get over it....' She trails off, but i ignore her, 'Can I go now?' I ask, once shes stops talking. She nods and I amble out the door, feeling eyes burn into my neck, I shove my headphones in my ears and flick my hoodie over my head. I walk down the hall to my locker, People move away from it when they see me. Unlocking my locker, I switch my science books for my laptop. No one touches my locker, unless they write something nasty on it. I close the door and remove my hoodie, everyone freezes. I turn away from my locker and make my way towards Sarah, 'Hey' I say,letting one head phone dangle. She looks at me and gives me a hug, 'God your a mess' I shrug and try to smile, seeing my attempt, Sarah smiles back, 'Wanna go?' She asks, I nod and she walks to our table, I follow her like a puppy. 'So, have you found out much about the guy?' She asks, sitting beside me. 'Yea, John Hodi' I flick my laptop open. Sarah peers at the screen, 'You sure it him?' I nod, 'The bastard had a tat, I'll never forget it' Sarah nods, 'Do you want to find him or what?' I sigh, 'Yea.. but If I did, I don't think i'd stand it. Dammit, why did He have to die, things were great......' I trail off, I slam my clenched fist on the table, people next to us look over, I ignore them. 'By 'he' you mean-' I cut her off, 'Don't say it, please, I.. i'm not ready' I look at my screen.Sarah hangs her head, 'So what have you found out?' She looks at me, 'Well it turns out, John's had family problems, He's also ex military, so we're dealing with a professional' Sarah sighs, 'Why don't you let the police deal with him?' 'Trust me on this, anyways they have tried, they didn't turn up nothin' ' Sarah looks at me. 'Grace, you did tell them everything, right?' 'Everything I remember, i was in shock, my boyfriend got killed in front of me. I remember a few things now, but if i can figure it out, I will be able to let it go, even say his name, move on, that's what i've been trying to do, but .... this school .... makes it harder.' I say grabbing a sandwich out of my bag. Sarah nods, 'How old was he when he did it?' 'Ahh, twenty nine, so he's thirty now, which means he won't have as much speed as he used to, unless he works out, which judging by his military record I guess he does.' Sarah takes my shoulders, 'Look, we might not be able to find this guy, can you drop it please?' Her eyes plead, I look at her. 'I..I.. I can't, He's dead Sarah, I want to find out why he did this, and tell him how much my life is ruined because of it. Look around, no one talks to me, I'm a ghost, invisible. No one cares anymore, but I do, can't you see that?' I say, swallowing back tears. She nods and releases me. Suddenly the new kid walks past, I close my laptop's lid. 'You like him don't you?' Sarah asks,once he's out of earshot. I look at her, 'What?' I ask, half listening. She grins, 'Omg, you do too, much of your not moving on till you figure it out.' She nudges me. I don't move, 'What's wrong with that?' I ask, turning back to watch him. 'Nothin' She smirks. ~~~~~~'So how was school?' My dad asks, I sigh and play with my food, mum glances at dad. 'Grace? Is everything alright?' I scoff, 'Seriously? My boyfriend is dead, and everything would be 'alright'? No nothing is right, not since He died' I start crying, through blind eyes I pick up my dinner and go to my room, leaving mum and dad stunned at the kitchen table. ~~~~~Hearing a knock on the door, I turn over. 'Sweetie, can we talk?' My mum asks through the closed door. Getting no reply, mum comes in anyway. I sigh and cover my head with the teddy he won for me at the fair, two years ago. Mum sits on my bed, I pull my knees up to my chest. 'What?' I say, as mum pulls the bear of my head. 'Honey, can you please sit up?' She places a hand on my leg. Reluctantly I sit up and take my headphones out, mum smiles and moves closer. 'It's Jose's death isn't?' She asks, I whimper and close my eyes. "Why does everyone keep saying his name!" I think to myself angrily. 'I know how you feel, when my brother died I-' I cut her off 'How would you know how I feel? My boyfriend got shot in the back of the head, in front of me!' I scream at her. 'Yea, sure they're both dead, but seeing someone get killed in front of you is just.....' I stop and hang my head, tears roll down my cheeks. Mum pulls me into a hug, I don't bother to get free. 'Why him? Things were great, why him?' I sob into mum's shoulder. She rubs my back, 'I don't know sweetheart, i don't know, how's things at school?' I look up at her, 'I don't know. Everyone just stares and whispers, they don't think I can't hear them, but I can, it hurts mum, really hurts, i'm a freak next to them.' I wipe my face, mum shakes her head, 'You're not a freak, you are strong, going back to school is tough, but if you stick it out eventually, they will forget' I sigh, 'They won't forget, as long as I'm at that school no one will forget, I see him everywhere, the mall, places we used to hang out,I can't take it anymore, i just wished i could make the guy who did it pay, that's all i won't do to.' Mum looks me in the eyes. 'I know, but how will you be able to find him? He's probably skipped town, he could be anywhere' I shake my head, 'He's still here,Ii can feel it, I just want to make him realize how much he's ruined my life...' I bury my head in my hands.