Finding Ourselves

Hard Nights

"McCall, can we talk?" I heard Jennifer making me furious. I kept trying to leave. 

"Loralie, wait!" Derek yelled after me grabbing my arm and turning me around. 

"What?" I asked and he looked shocked, scared, taken back. 

"Listen.." he started but I didn't want to hear

"No, you listen. I have done nothing but been here, Derek. I guess you needed the time more than I did." I said

"No! Loralie. This is just- I don't know what to say. You needed time and this was just something that happened." he says

"Oh, my gosh, Derek! I'm so sorry that my Dad left me behind and I went for so long without a mother leaving me on antidepressants! I'm sorry that I have to take unwanted pills to deal with life! I stopped, I was over it! You helped me find that! But I guess you were just a break. Oh, yeah, and I'm sorry, so, so, so, very sorry that my best friend died and everyone knew about it but didn't feel the need to tell me! And I'm sorry that use time to mourn every single thing that has every happened to me! " I yelled and he was just frozen

"Loralie, it isn't his fault, okay, liste-" I had it with her already she was lucky I wasn't slitting her throat right now. And she is so very lucky that I'm not saying her deep dark secrets. 

"No! Jennifer you are the last person that should be talking to me." I said and she stopped stepping back. I looked at Derek one last time and I left out the door. I grabbed my phone and called Scott but he didn't answer. I called Stiles and lucky for me he answered.

"Hey, Loralie. What's up?" he sounded stressed and I was starting to cry going down to the parking lot. 

"Hey, listen if you're busy tell me." I said and he answered quickly

"No, no, no, no, no. What happened why are you crying?" he asked me

"I went to Derek's to grab my stuff and then I walked in on him and Ms. Blake making out." I said

"What! Scott is going to kill him! Wait! He's alive?" Stiles told me

"Yes, obviously since I just caught him cheating on me!" I said and Stiles stopped talking

"Stiles?" I asked and he paused

"uh...Loralie?" he sounded scared

"Scott...Scott." I heard Allison say

"Loralie, your brother is trying to kill himself." Stiles told me through the phone making me really regret not going. 

"What!" I asked in panic

"Yeah, Loralie maybe we should talk about this later." Stiles said

"No! Don't hang up just put me on speaker and put the phone on the floor that way I can hear." I told him and he listened. I heard the phone hit the floor. I was crying. I looked up at Derek's window and he stood there worry across his face. He started to run down and in panic I went to my car. I couldn't find my keys. He was coming towards me and I was able to unlock the car. I got inside and closed the door locking all of them. 

"There's no hope." I heard and it was Scott

"What do you mean, Scott? There's always hope." Allison said

"How?" I said hoping someone would hear me.

"Your brother put gasoline all over the floor and himself and is holding a road flare." I heard Lydia voice.

"Not for me. Not for Derek." Scott said and it was true there probably wasn't hop for Derek anymore. I put the car in reverse as he was right in front of my car. I pulled out and he tried to stop me. I was off the parking lot and I drove down the road to go home but then I pulled over.