Avenger Imagines

Bucky x Reader (suicidal)

Dedicated to Wolfcore225 who requested this

(Y/N)'s POV

I don't know how to do this anymore
Bucky has been gone for over 8 months now and still no information of how he's doing. When I found out that he was going on this mission that had an almost 2% survival rate, I wanted to yell and scream. Just to let him know that I care for him so much, and that I love him so much

The people on this mission are Nat and Wanda who are my bestfriends and act like my sister's, Sam and Clint who are like my older brothers, and Bucky who I love. I can't stand knowing that it's almost impossible that they will come back alive
Thor is somewhere in Asgard and Tony is dealing with some government things, so I've just been alone at the tower with Jarvis.

Ever since they've been gone, the blade has been my friend. Just dragging it against my wrist, seeing the blood come out from the cuts is just some how, soothing. Everyday I add a few more cuts to my skin, not caring if I get caught because there's no one here, so what's the point

The voices in my head keep telling me to just end it, and that no one will ever know since they're already gone. I think it's just about time that I end it

Bucky's Pov

I just got back from one of the most gruesome mission with the team, whatever Hydra is doing, it needs to be stopped. I can't wait to finally see (y/n) again, she's the one who had kept me going threw this mission

Just seeing her again, makes want just hug her and never let go, I really do love this girl and I'm gonna say it.
I'm on my way to surprise her, in her room. That is until Jarvis speaks up from the ceiling

"Mr. Barnes, Ms. (Y/l/n) has acquired assistance in their bathroom and has requested for you to help" I start wonder why she's there and I start running over to where her floor is to help

Finally I reach the bathroom door and knock, being polite in case she is indecent. There no answer, That s strange because normally she will yell a random word, I try knocking again until I start to hear crying and break down the door

(Y/n)'s Pov

I'm in my bathroom, crying while cutting my wrist again, until my door some how breaks down and I see Bucky there. I just look at the floor not noticing that he's getting bandages and looking at the razor in my hand.

"W-why would you ever do this" I hear him ask, I look up seeing him in front of me trying to bandage my wrist
"I thought you weren't gonna make it, I thought you didn't care" I say still crying, trying not to look at his blue eyes, filled with worry and sadness

"Doll, could you please look at me" I raise my head, "you are one of the most important people in my life, I will always care for you. In fact I love you and always will" Bucky confesses towards me

"Buck, I have loved you ever since I met you" I start blushing, "Really doll, would you mind being my girlfriend"

"Of course, I would love to be your girlfriend Bucky" We start to lean in and kiss