Week later
"How are we gonna explain this to everyone?" I questioned August as we sat on my bed. "Well ya family already know, it's jus' my family and Madison." He said rubbing my belly.
I sighed. "This wasn't supposed to happen to me."
"Nadia I know you ain't second guessin' shit." He said sitting up. "No August I'm not it's just—"
"It's jus' what cause last time this happened to me I had to raise a baybeh on my own." He basically yelled at me. "Look August now that's what you not rey do! You not rey sit up here and yell and compare me to that bitch!" I shook my head.
"Well you surely is actin' like ha, at least she kept that shit ta ha self fo' nine months. You barely got through one."
"You got me fucked up!" I pushed him towards the door of my bedroom. "Stop touching me Nadia." He moved my arms.
"Get off of me." I pushed him again, but instead of walking away from me he pushed me back making me stumble.
"August." I said as my voice began to tremble. He looked at me, but then turned around leaving the room.
I ran after him down the steps. "August." I called but he walked towards the door.
"Stop." I caught up to him grabbing his arm. "Get off of me Nadia." He gently pushed me.
"Are you crying?" I asked. He put his hands on the front door and began sobbing. "August what's wrong?" I began crying because he was.
"I'm sorry baybeh I aint mean to say that." He cried into my chest. "It's okay August, I apologize as well." I played in his hair.
"It's jus' that I've been having trouble with mother figures since I was 14 years old. When you told me what happened wit ya mother I felt so bad because I know my mother is alive but I 'ont make the effort to talk or see ha." He sniffed.
I led him over to the couch. I sat down then let him lay across the couch with his head on my lap. "Go ahead and let it out babe."
"One day when I came home from practice I saw ha doing coke and when I tried to stop ha and shit she wouldn't. I told ha she could die and we would be motherless but it jus' seemed like she ain't care." He cried.
"Nadia that hurt so bad, I neva thought my mama the woman that birthed me would put drugs before me. She would come back and ask fo' money, that was the only time I would see ha. But she recently started coming back afta three years. Fuckin' three years, she really think I wanna relationship wit ha now afta she been choosing drugs ova me for more than 8 years. Fuck no!" He screamed which made me jump.
"My fault I aint mean to scare ya." He chuckled. "You good you are getting out your frustration. But August not to make it about me but you know my mother's gone and I wish I could have at least one second with her, that's all I ask. So I really think you should see your mother and make things right with her it's only right. Do it for Madison and the little baby growing inside of me, if you don't wanna do it for yourself."
He nodded and wiped his face. "I'm sorry y'all had to see me like that, I aint neva gone be a punk again." He kissed my belly then my cheek. "It's okay baby I understand." I smiled.
"Let's go get Madison lil ass befo' she harass Terraine." He laughed grabbed my hand to help pull me up. "I can get up by myself I'm not handicap nor fat yet."
"Jus' being the gentlemen I am." He shrugged. "Thanks." I laughed.
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