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[ALMOST] DYING KISS | (p.jmxreader)

pairing: boyxboy

type: angst

warnings: attempted suicide, please be wary of that. if you feel uncomfortable with subjects such as this, please skip this story. you will not be forced to read this.

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You are done. Complete over all this bullshit that you receive from people at this dumbass school. Called you fat, gay, behind your back. Tried to molest you at the back of the school, where no teacher has ever bothered to survey. Even your closest friends took a stab at hurting you.

You are over everything. You keep on telling yourself that everything will change, but to no avail. As you felt the blood drip down your wrists at night, as you listened to the satisfying drip of the blood into the bath water, staining it crimson red, you think that ending it all would feel much better.

So you decide tomorrow is the final day.

The next day crawls excruciatingly slow, but you are excited among a sea of torpid students, just waiting to go home. However, they always knew how to energize themselves to make you feel lesser than them.

When the school day finally ended, you raced straight home, and your parents are home. It breaks your heart to see them happy on this day.

Your death day.

You race up towards your room, and write a quick, but truly heartfelt poem, more like a suicide note.

Dear parents,

Thank you
for everything.
It's time for me
to go
now.

As you signed the bottom of the paper with a flourish, you grabbed the car keys to the new vehicle your parents just got you as a senior gift. They loved you.

(Y/N, grab onto my hand, can you grab hold, CAN YOU GRAB HOLD)

They adored you. Loved you to bits.

As the night creeped into your sight, you were filled with delight. You were happy that this would be the last day. To end all of the suffering that has been happening these past few years.

You drove, and you pulled over to the parking at the nearby recreation center, next to the bridge.

(Y/N, I love you. I just didn't have the courage to say it.)

You took a little walk throughout the park, and admired all the scenery had to offer. You looked around, and saw all these happy people, couples, children, running along, laughing, kissing. As if they didn't have a care in the world.

You almost immediately feel a pang of jealousy, but it went as quickly as it came. You are not going to be held back, you say to yourself.

When the time finally comes, you walk over to the bridge, and you notice there are no cars

(Y/N, DON'T DO IT, STOP)

along the street at this time of night. You sigh with relief, knowing that you won't make a spectacle of yourself, but you will the next morning.

When your body hits the shore.

You climb on the railing, and you feel the night breeze cut your face, and you sigh with relief. You take one step into the imaginary walkway you've created for yourself, and let yourself fall. You didn't even create that walkway.

When you feel a pair of hands grab you by your hands, you feel nothing but anger and tears brimming your eyes.

When the hands pull you up, you keep your eyes closed as the mysterious figure pulls you into a deep hug.

You beat the stranger blindly, and you scream at him. "WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?! I JUST WANTED TO DIE, CAN'T YOU SEE THAT?!"

When the mysterious figure tells you open your eyes, you don't the first time. When he orders you to, you don't do it. When he screams at you, you finally do.

Park...Jimin. The mysterious figure is Park Jimin. You scream even louder, thinking that this is a dream, a cruel dream. Your crush, your secret lover, is saving you from the death that you wanted. You deserved.

He protected you from everything, from everyone. He made sure no one hurt you, can't you see that?

You couldn't. You were so wrapped up in your own self. Thought the world revolves around you. But, what you didn't know was that you revolved around his world.

Jimin's world.

He protected you, because like your parents, he loved you. But on a completely different level. He had an love for you deeper than the core of the earth. He wanted to be with you, kiss you, fuck you until you were numb, give you love marks all over your body. He wanted to treat you right.

He pulled close to him, tears falling down on both of your faces. Your lips ghosted over his, but Jimin finally closed the gap between you.

He shakily answered to you in that voice that you fell for all these years ago, with loving kisses in between.

"You" *kiss* "Are" *kiss* "Worth" *kiss* "It," he said, sniffling and kissing you with a burning love that was eating him alive, but he loved it. He loved being with you. And that's why you should stay.

In a world that hated you for who you were, Jimin let you revolve around his.

"You are worth it to me, Y/N. And you always will be."