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Purity.

The word seems pretentious coming from me, I send my message, and gloom takes its toll on me as reality knocks. Now I face the horror of what I'm done; the sin is too grave. What was I thinking?

Why did I kiss him back?

I'm supposed to get him back with the archer.

I'm supposed to disappear and fade into the decor without a word.

I kissed him, even though he did it first. It's not the point; I responded when I should have pushed him away. The feeling was more substantial than me though I was shocked; I wanted to do it so badly. What's worst is it felt right; at that instant, nothing else existed except Tae Won and me.

As if I wasn't 6ft under, my phone buzzes with another Jane annyeong mail.

But this time is different; there are files attached.

The first lasts 10 seconds, Tae Won and I are walking along Cheongacheon river. The person filming must be across the bank from us.

The second shows us at Hongdae on market day; we're picking fake glasses.

And the third shows us in the pool kissing.

I grasp my phone as it threatens to drop from my trembling hands. I run to the window; it's very dark; I can't see a thing.

My heart throws its self against my rib cage. I go and fetch my phone. The video is long and stops when my parents arrive.

My phone buzzes again with a message:

I KNOW WHAT YOU DID.

I'm burning; everything around me appears to be in shades of red and double as the shapes of the objects distort.

My breath halts, I'm in apnea; my room swirls around me; I don't feel my feet.

Blackout.

I wake up in my bed. Rebecca holds my hand. I look around the room and see my phone is on the nightstand.

"Oh, God, Jane, you scared the life out of me."

"Mom, what?"

"Your midnight dip got the best of you, 104°F fever. You were old cold for the day."

"The day, you mean I missed a whole day," I exclaim in dread.

My thoughts run off to Tae Won. I promised to meet him the next day. I turn to grasp my phone; it's turned off and visibly needs to be charged.

"Jane, what's the matter?"

"Tae Won, I promised."

"He called Mona, who called here. I think she relayed the message to him."

I sink back into bed, and then I remember. Sweat breaks out on my forehead, which mom immediately sponges.

"The doctor said you need some rest, Jane, don't get all worked up. Get some rest; I'll come and check on you later."

Mom gets up and leaves; I get out of bed and put my phone on charge. I don't even wait. I turn it on and go directly to my messages.

Everything is still there, the videos and the message:

I KNOW WHAT YOU DID.

Mona was wrong; this isn't about Tae Won and the archer; it's about me.

There's someone out there who knows what I did, and they seem to want to make me pay. What was I thinking?

What goes around comes around, and this is it. I crossed the threshold by kissing Tae Won, I shouldn't have, and I have to receive my punishment.

"Jane, are you okay?

"Ah, eh-"

"Still getting those messages," Mona says.

I need to talk, I held up till now, but now I need to tell someone; otherwise, my mind will implode.

"Mona, I don't think it's Tae Won's ex-girlfriend's fanbase. I think it's something else."

"Something else?"

Mona is my cousin; she has never hidden anything from me. I shouldn't leave her like this. We made a deal.

"Mona, there's something I need to tell you."

We're alone in my room, and both of my parents are out. I start to tell my story, and I say everything, even the part about who Kim Tae Won really is. Mona's eyes grow big enough to engulf the universe in them when I speak her that, but still, she says nothing till the very end.

"You should tell the police."

"No, Mona, I can't. Are you crazy?"

Mona gives me a nameless stare.

She must think I'm a monster."

I doubt whether I said my thought out loud as Mona pulls me into a hug and whispers, "only God can judge us, bae."

Hi guys,

I don't even know what to say about the situation.

Who do you think the stalker is?

Should Jane pursue her relationship with Tae Won, or do you think their relationship is wrong and against all moral ethics.

Thank you for reading.