i don't like your girlfriend ➸ seulrene

+ joohyun

i'm sitting on a bench at the park i used to go to with jisoo.
we used to sit on that same bench and talk about our future together and our careers while cuddling and kissing.
this time
it won't be as happy as the others.
i exhale deeply practicing what i'm going to say to jisoo when the girl arrives.
"hey baby!" a familiar voice behind me exclaimed.
jisoo walks to the bench and sits near me.
our nervousness could be easily felt by everyone passing by. especially mine.
"hey" i answer trying to fake a smile to the girl.
silence.
jisoo tries to break it with a "how are you doing?" but after we both answer everything goes back to the same silence.
heavy and cold.
"jisoo - i start to say - i- i- i think we should break up."
i start to tear up.
i can't even look in her eyes.
with her hand she raises my chin making me look at her and then
she hugs me.

"joohyun... hey... don't worry..." she says while patting my back.
i can feel that she's trying not to cry.
she's trying to be strong.
"i'm so sorry jisoo... i- i don't deserve you, i never did... - i say as i try to hold back my tears - i only hurt you."
i break the hug to finally stare at her. these beautiful eyes that made me fall in love for the first time in my whole life,
now i'm making them cry.

"joohyun listen - she dries my tears - all this years, you never hurt me. you loved me and i could feel your sincerity.
i really love you joohyun.
you made me into a better person and i will always be grateful for that but
- a tear rolled slowly down her cheek -
e-ever since seulgi came here you started to distance yourself from me.
i thought i weren't enough for you.
even when you said you loved me i- i couldn't believe you.
i knew that you were going to leave me at some point.
that's why i tried to distance myself too."
"jisoo i..." she interrupts me
"wait."
"i know that you like seulgi a-and i know that she likes you too.
i talked to her. i told her to treat you well and to give you what i couldn't.
so yes... let's break up joohyun."

we stay silent for a minute.
only our cries can be heard.

"i'm sorry jisoo."
"don't be sorry,
the heart wants what it wants."

i kiss her one last time.
nothing.
i feel nothing but her sadness.

"let's still be friends, joohyun-ah"

she smiles and i slowly walk away.
away from that girl who gave me
so much.
that girl i couldn't love
the way
she should have been
loved.