Friends With Benefits

Chapter 32

My baby is gone...

I didn't want to accept it, but the truth was in front of my face.

Hot tears were running down my cheeks. Right now, I didn't care if someone saw me. I just lost my child.

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I saw Lin move. She turned her head as if she was examining the place. I wanted to speak, but I couldn't get myself to do it. Instead I just remained in my seat and watched her.

She groaned in pain. I wanted to badly to hold her, but I couldn't get myself to do it.

She struggled to sit up and when she did she leaned against the headrest. I should have helped her, but I couldn't.

Her eyes were focused on me. She was deep in thought.

I was angry. Deep inside I still couldn't believe it. I couldn't believe what I just found out, but it was there in front of me.

She just looked at me in confusion.

"What happened?" she asked, her voice raspy.

It was obvious that she knew exactly what happened.

I couldn't bring myself to say anything. I just stared at her, feeling my insides burn in fury.

The front door opened and in came Drew and Jenna.

"You're awake!" Jenna shrieked.

Her shrieked annoyed me. I didn't know why, it just did.

She threw her bag at Drew and then ran towards Lin.

"What happened?" Lin asked again as Jenna pulled away.

Jenna took a seat on the chair beside her bed and pursed her lips into a thin line. She grabbed Lin's hand in a soothing manner.

"Lin, darling, um..." she trailed off.

It really irritated me.

"Jake, our baby?" Lin asked with her voice cracking.

My heart thumped in chest painfully. I hated how much pain her eyes held. I wanted to comfort her so badly, but I can't bring myself to forgive her.

This was her fault.

"My baby is gone," I said hardly.

Deep inside I don't want to blame her, but it really was. Yes, call me a jerk, but I have my own reasons.

Tears flowed out from her eyes. Immediately she was in Jenna's arms. I should be the one holding her, but I couldn't. It was painful watching her crumble, but this was her fucking fault!

Her sobs became ragged and soon enough she was forming hiccups.

"Honey, calm down," Jenna cooed quietly.

"What the fuck are you doing, Jake!" Drew snapped quietly, so only I could hear.

What the fuck am I doing?

In front of me was the girl I love. She just lost our child. She's breaking and crying. She's hurt.

Why am I not beside her? Why am I not hugging her and soothing her with words?

I mentally shook my head as the previous events pierced in my mind.

Baby.

Pills.

She did this.

"Stop crying!" I snapped and rose from my seat.

Lin looked shocked. Her green eyes was focused on me as I took steps towards her.

Don't give in.

"You did this."

Even the words hurt me.

What the hell are you doing, Jake!

"What?" she choked.

"You did this!"

I felt tears forming in my eyes but I refused to let them out.

"What the hell are you saying, Jake!" she yelled back.

"You fucking killed my child!"

"That's enough, Jake!" Drew snapped.

I turned around. I knew my eyes spelled fury.

"Get the fuck out!"

"No. You're going to do something you'll regret."

I shook my head and shoved him towards the door. "Go away!"

"Calm down, Jake."

I shook my head and shoved him harder until his back was pressed against the door.

"Stop it, Jake!" Lin screamed.

My body stiffened at her words. I turned around and looked at her.

"Lin, how could you?" It was already inaudible but I knew she heard me.

"What the hell are you saying?"

"If you didn't want the baby. You could have told me. Not take some fucking pills and kill my child!" I screamed.

Shock filled Lin's face. She looked like I just slapped her.

"I didn't take-"

I reached in my pockets and threw the bottle of pills towards her bed.

"Tell me, why is that in your bag?"

She took the bottle of some abortion pills with shaky hands. "Did you really think I did this on purpose?"

Did I?

I couldn't answer. Lin couldn't possibly do it. But it was in her bag and there was another one hidden in her cabinet.

Lin shook her head with her eyes closed. "I want divorce."

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Padionk.

JAKE IS A JERK. IM SORRY.

AND IM A BITCH. SORRY.

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