shinee imagines

01.13.2018

as my day comes to close, i would like to ask how all of you are doing. i will be answering all comments and messages received tonight if anyone needs someone to talk to.

personally, i am still not taking things well. it's hard to hold everything in at school and then when i'm alone i feel grief and sadness pouring into my head like the heaviest of rainstorms. some parts of me want to believe he's still here because it's not like i saw him in person everyday... i only saw him through a screen.

i want to believe that this whole thing has been a nightmare and that he's breathing, that his beautiful heart is still beating—

but i know that's unfair to let myself to fall under these delusions.

i cannot listen to shinee's music anymore. if i do, i feel nauseous. i keep trying to suppress everything even though i know it'll make things worse in the end.

five days more marks a month.

please talk to me if you're still struggling. you're not alone.