Let Me Love You | BTS Min Yoongi

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❗️I AM SO SORRY, the rest of the chapter is finally up, Wattpad was legit not letting me upload it 😭😭❗️

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▪️Third Person Point of View▪️

The rhythmic creaking of the wooden rocking chair ricocheted off the walls of the vast dark quiet home. It's rhythmic sways and the occasional stifled sob were the only sounds audible that evening. The house was no longer filled with the sounds of laughter, or noisy chatter, or the rattle of kitchen appliances as dinner was being prepared.

The house now stood feeling hollow and deserted of its previous warmth filled atmosphere.

Ji Su once again found herself alone siting besides Jinie's crib, idly swaying herself on the rocking chair, contemplating her life decisions. Tears trickled down her cheeks as her mind was finally allowed to wander back to her greatest burden, which she had tried to bury away. Only one thing occupied her mind ...

Her test results from her visit to the hospital earlier that week.

She had already let another week go by.

A week less.

A week closer.

Everyone was still oblivious to her current state, and she knew she couldn't hide her condition from them much longer. The symptoms would become more obvious and noticeable as time passed. She had to break the news to everyone, but she herself had not fully processed it. She needed to be mentally prepared and be emotionally stable before she disclosed her newfound condition to her loved ones.

She knew they would all worry and want to be there for her more after they found out.

She had to be mindful of how she broke the news to them to prevent it from affecting them more than it should. There was nothing else she could do, but accept her condition and continue living alongside her only daughter and husband, for as long as that was.

So, she sat at home on the rocking chair lightly crying as she amorously rubbed her belly.

She was now a couple weeks into her second pregnancy.

A billion thoughts ran through her head as she sat there rocking her new baby in her belly, as Jinie slept soundly in her crib. She smiled fondly in between tears as held one of Jinie's tiny hands in one hand, and slowly rubbed her belly with the other.

Although she was beyond overjoyed to find out she was carrying Jin's second child, she couldn't help but have her happiness diminished by the worry that was consuming her thoughts.

It's not that she doesn't want to have another child, but she doesn't want it to happen like this. Not again. She didn't feel ready to take on another child while she was barely able to care for one. She was happy she was carrying Jinie's sibling, but she was scared. She was barely able to manage to keep up with Jinie and her job, how would she manage two small children on her own?

What worried her the most was how she would break the news to Jin.

When she had announced her first pregnancy, she had found herself hospitalized and almost lost her baby. Her first pregnancy had not been easy, and the idea that her experience may repeat itself scared her. She couldn't help but allow her past to continue to haunt her.

She knew Jin had changed, but that frightening day he almost caused her to lose their child still plagues her memories, especially now that she has another little angel on the way.