DIARY OF AN UNWANTED CHILD

Entry No. 9 | March 12

Lies distance everything.
—o0o—

By part, we are judge as a whole.

Diary,

     Have you ever feel 'yong feeling na you do not feel comfortable with someone? That feeling when you do not even know that person, but you tend to judge that person based on what he or she is doing. His or her stares, movement, and words. It is creepy, isn't it?

Kahit labag sa loob ko ay lumabas ako nang kwarto. Ngayon dadating si Mark, pinsan ko sa ama. She's the son of Tita Thalia. One of my favorite titas in the whole world. I love her, well, except sa anak n'ya. Ayaw ko talagang nakikita ang pagmumukha no'n. Mula pagkabata ay magkaaway kami, I just do not know why. Wala namang bangayan or away na nangyari , basta parang pareho naming alam na we are not compatible with each other. He is Fire, while I am the water. Hindi kami nag-uusap, except kung kinakailangan, like pinapatawag siya ni tita at ako ang inutusan and vice versa. It is almost six years, the last time I saw him, and I do not know if kagaya pa rin nang dati. Lalo na ngayon na rito siya titira for the meantime dahil aalis si tita at walang tao sa bahay nila. Speaking of Mark, he is here. In front of me. Smiling like an idiot.

“Hey, Ate Mara!” nakangiti n'yang sabi kay ate na kalalabas lang nang kusina. Naghanda kase sila ni dad nang lunch for this unwelcome bwesitor.

“Hello, Mark. Long time no see,” ngiting pabalik ni ate. What to expect? Si ate 'yung tipo nang tao na kahit hindi n'ya gusto ay ngingiti siya, and that is what we call pakikisama. Kagaya ko, hindi rin n'ya gusto ang pinsan naming ito. May pagkapresko raw kase.