Justin and Jamie continue their journey in California as their love grows and they grow as people causing bumps in the road. Their new life in California with new friends could be the best thing for them or could shake things up.
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I sighed as I looked over at Justin who sleeps peacefully beside me. Then I faced his phone again.
Fuck it. If things really are different then I won't find anything and everything will be fine.
I unlocked his phone and went straight to his messages. I noticed most conversations were gone which means he deleted them. I didn't see one girls name besides obviously me, his mom, Allison, and Ally.
I swiped out of that and went to his contacts. I typed in one girls name and it didn't pop up. So I typed in another girls name and again didn't see her number. Maybe he deleted their numbers then.
I went to his blocked callers list and my eyes widened to see many girls numbers were now blocked. Damn. I honestly didn't expect that at all.
I swiped out of that and went onto Snapchat. I didn't see any recent Snapchat's from any girls. I mean there are girls on here, but they were just his friends not girls he hooked up.
I smiled and swiped out of it before locking his phone. I carefully reached over him and put the phone quietly back on the night stand. I laid back down and felt myself calm down again.
He can obviously have friends that are girls, but it always made me uncomfortable when he would stay friends with girls he hooked up with. I think any girl would feel the same way. I mean it's Justin we are talking about. He's perfect. He's so god damn handsome. He can have any girl in the world. So of course I get scared. But he loves me.
And finally things are going back to normal. I don't want anything to ruin it.
**End Of Flashback**
"Babe?" I heard Justin say pulling me from my thoughts. I looked up at him and he chuckled. "Deep in thought?" He asked as he kept a smile.
"Yeah." I said and giggled. "Should I go get ready now? What time are we going?" I asked him.
"You can get ready now. We can go whenever you're ready" he told me as he let go of me. I leaned up and kissed him softly.
"I can't wait" I said before kissing him once more. I went to walk away, but he grabbed my waist again. I looked back up at him. He smiled down at me still.
"I love you, baby" he said quietly.
"I love you too" I kissed him once more and he let go of me. Time to go get ready for where ever he is taking me.
***
Justin and I are at this park that has a pond and many paths to walk down. It's a pretty big park. We are by the water leaning against the railing and facing each other as we talk.
"It was never my intention to hurt you. Ever. I look back and hate myself for what I was putting you though. But I wasn't myself. I wasn't sober, wasn't healthy, had way too much going on in my head that would make anyone's head spin. I was pushing away everyone who loved me. It wasn't right, but my mind just wasn't right either. But I knew you stuck by me as much as you can until I started to pull you down with me. I never wanted that for you" he ranted to me. I sighed and nodded.
"I know, Justin. I know you didn't" I said back and I grabbed his hand. "Don't hate yourself over it. We can't do anything to change the past. But you were able to change your ways and be healthy and positive again. That is what matters most. And everyone is still by your side. I'm here. I'll always be here. I may have left a while, but I knew I wasn't okay either. But I'm here now" I said back to him. He nodded and looked off into the water so I did the same.
"I will do everything in my power to keep you happy." I heard him say causing me to look back at him as he stared back at me. "I won't lose you again. Since we were little I've seen a future with you. Well granted when we were little, I just saw a future of us being best friends forever" he stopped talking to laugh. I giggled and shook my head. "But once we got older, once I knew my feelings for you, I saw a future for us. A relationship, a marriage, children, a beautiful home. I see it all with you." He told me. I started to blush as I smiled wide.
"I do too. I see us having all of that" I said back and he pulled me to him. He wrapped his arms around my waist so I did the same with him.
"I love you so much. I hope you know that" he said then kissed the top of my head.
"I do, I promise. I love you more, babe" I said then picked up my head to look up at him. He smiled down at me and put one hand on my cheek. "I missed you, J" I said quietly.
"Does this mean you'll follow me back on Instagram?" He joked causing me to laugh.
"I completely forgot" I said back giggling. Wow. I really forgot I unfollowed him.
"Not going to lie, that hurt a little" he joked again and I playfully rolled my eyes.
"Wait, this one thing blew my mind" I started to talk and laughed a little. "Ally and Chaz"
"I know right!" He said in disbelief. "I was shocked. I really thought they were trying to prank me" he said getting a laugh out of me. "We have to go visit them soon or them come to us" he said and I nodded agreeing.
"Maybe for the holidays then" I told him and he nodded quickly. I just stared at him as I kept my smile.
He looks healthy and happier. This is all I wanted for him. Because anyone who really looked at him before could have noticed he wasn't okay. Now you can tell he is healthier than he was before.
Our relationship was rocky and toxic for four months before I left it. But Justin wasn't himself and was using drugs for six months. Honestly, it could have been more. But I didn't know until his arrest.
But thankfully, he pulled himself together and woke up one day wanting to be a better man. Wanting to be healthy and love life. I'm so grateful he's back to his old self.
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