Finding Your Love

Chapter twenty nine: good bye

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Keefe's POV:

Foster looked at me, I stared at her, and let a big ugly sob escape my lips "call me if anything else happens, I'll be right outside" Elwin choked, and crowded everyone out

"Foster!" I sobbed and held onto her, sobbing, I didn't even care how much it burnt, I just wanted to hold her, to spend as much time as I could with her before... I can't even finish that sentence, I felt sick thinking of that, I ran out of the room to the closest bathroom I could find and puked a couple times, and then I curled in a ball on the floor and let myself wail

"No" I choked, talking to myself, "she's going to make it" I sobbed, holding myself

"Keefe?" I heard someone sob and open the bathroom door, it was Biana, she was crying a lot too

She came up and hugged me, I didn't hug her back though "I-I heard what-what's g-going on" She stuttered, sobbing in between her words, I didn't want her to be here, I wanted to be alone, I didn't want to comfort her, I just wanted Foster to be ok

"C-come on" she said, trying to get me up, "y-you've been in here f-for th-three hours" she told me... damn really that long "S-Sophie wants t-to see you" she sobbed and I shook my head "i can't go back in there" I choked, I was turning green "K-Keefe, I d-don't want to b-be the one to-to say th-this but, I th-think you sh-should spend as much t-time with h-her as y-you c-can" she choked "b-before..." she started to say but I grabbed her arm and glared at her "k-Keefe" she said "you're- you're h-hurting me" she finished and I still glared "she. Is. Going. To. Make. It." I said slowly and she looked at me, still sobbing, she vanished and reappeared right in front of me but out of my reach, she was holding her arm which now had a big purple bruise

"B-Biana, I'm sorry, I-I don't know what g-got into me." I choked and looked at my hand

"It-it's okay" she said, holding out her hand that was on her not bruised arm, I grabbed it and she helped me up. We got into the room and I saw Tam holding a sobbing Amy who kept vanishing, and Dex was sitting next to Sophie, he had gloves on but he was holding her hand, I didn't see Lihn, but I saw Pretence hugging Wylie, and Edaline sobbing into Grady and Jolie, Elwin was talking to a sobbing Della and Alden, I didn't see Fitz, but I saw Sandor and Gisele crying, everyone was, I mean, how could you not cry

"F-Fitz ran off, a-and L-Lihn ran after h-him" biana explained, stepping into the room to be immediately hugged by Dex, who let Biana fall into him

"Keefe?" Foster's weak voice asked and a let out another sob, I didn't even want to stay tough, I wanted to break down and cry, never come out of my room, but I couldn't, I had to at least try to be tough..... that's not even possible

"Foster" I said and walked over to her, every step was breaking my heart, it killed me to see her like that, she was so pale, she wasn't warm anymore, she was just so... she felt.... she was scared, I could tell

"Hi" she said and I sat next to her on her gigantic bed, she smiled weakly and a tear rolled down her face, I instinctively wiped it away "hi baby" I said and choked, sobbed, cried, wailed, whatever you want to call it "don't cry" she ordered, cupping my face

"Don't cry?" I asked, still sobbing "h-how a-am I n-not supposed t-to c-cry?" I asked, still crying "guys" Elwin choked and gestured everyone out of the room

"D-do you kn-know?" I asked and she nodded "yes" she choked, staring at me "its all going to be okay" she promised and I laid down next to her, we snuggled into each other, she held me and let me cry, "I love you so much Foster, I can't even explain" I sobbed, grabbing her, "I love you too Keefe, so much" she whispered and the words broke my heart "I know I'm not going to make it" she said and I turned green "you are-" I tried to tell her but she cut me off "let me finish" she said and I nodded "I know I'm not going to make it, but I only want one thing Keefe, please" she said and I looked at her "W-what?" I asked, curious, "I want you be okay, Keefe, I want you to still live, i don't want you to mope around in grief, and definitely not guilt, please Keefe, just do that for me, when I'm gone, please?"
She begged and I looked at her, tears still falling, she had some new tears to, I hugged her and kissed her, taking it all in, I wasn't going to lose her, I wasn't

She wrapped her arms around my neck, and I wrapped mine around her waist, her lips were so soft and warm, we were laying down, so I was almost sprawled across her but I held my self up so I didn't crush her

"I love you" I whispered and kissed her jawline "i love you more" she said and tangled her hands in me hair "you wish" I said and moved a piece of hair out off her face. She laughed, and then frowned

"Keefe" She said and a single tear fell down her face "don't ever forget an me" she sobbed and I held her "Sophie Foster, I would never" I whispered, sobbing too "I won't stop loving you Foster, ever" I stated and she smiled through the tears

We herd a knock on the door and I got off of her, but was still beside her

"El-Elwin said w-we sh-should s-say g-goodbye" Fitz sobbed as he walked in, looking at Foster, heartbroken

I nodded and stood up, kissing fosters head and standing away from the bed, I fell on my knees, still crying as everyone came in.

Fitz hugged Sophie in a bone crushing hug "bye Sophie" he sobbed, getting tears all over the bed "you were the best friend and cognate anyone could have" he sobbed "thank you for finding me Fitz, thank you for everything" Sophie whispered, a tear falling down her face, she buried her face in his shoulder"bye Fitz" she said and Fitz let out a sob when he looked at her, he backed away, and then out of nowhere, he fainted, falling to the floor, Elwin got him up and carried him out

Foster looked away, trying not to cry, then Lihn, Tam, and Biana came in

"Sophie" Biana cried, hugging her, Lihn did the same "you guys have been the best girlfriends a girl could have" she sobbed, hugging them with as much strength as her weak body could

"Ditto" Lihn choked, and Biana nodded, sobbing while doing so, the three shared a look and then walked over to the corner of the room

"Sophie" tam cried, hugging her "you were my first real friend-except for my sister- at Exillium" he confessed and Sophie cried "anytime" she whispered, hugging him back, and then he walked over to his sister while Amy walked in with Pretence, Wylie, Edaline, Jolie , Grady, Alden, and Della.

Amy said goodbye first, and I thought I had to be the most heartbreaking thing I'd ever seen. And then Pretence and Wylie came up.

"My daughter" Pretence said and sobbed, him and Wylie hugging her "I love you guys" she sobbed and so did everybody else in the room. "Love you too sis" Wylie cried and hugged her tight "I love you my moonlark" Pretence cried, and they hugged for a while.

"Mom, Jolie, dad" Sophie said as Edaline, Jolie and Grady came over, I felt bad for them, they lost Jolie, found Sophie, found Jolie, and is now losing Sophie, it's horrible. "I love you, Sophie" they threw said and sobbed. "I love you guys too, thank you for taking me in" I said and Edaline and Grady nodded "of course, Sophie you are one of the three special women in my life, we wouldn't have ever been the same without you, we love you" Grady said he kissed Sophie's head and so did Eda, and Edaline started sobbing a lot "I love you Sophie!" Eda sobbed as Grady held her and walked away. "I love you sophie" Jolie said and Sophie smiled "and I love you" she said and they hugged. She was crying so much, She ran over to her parents and sobbed.

  After everyone said goodbye, we all just kind off cried.

"I love you Sophie, I will never stop loving you" I sobbed to her and she smiled through her tears. "Just don't forget me Keefe" she said quietly and I kissed her lips gently "I couldn't" I said and I hugged her as tight as I could.

"I love you guys" she said to the group and they all told her that they loved her back.

"I love you Keefe" she whispered and her face scrunched up, she screamed and I grabbed her hand, I didn't care that one second she was freezing cold and the next boiling hot. I just wanted to hold her.

"I love you Foster!" I said and she gave one last scream and then she went limp.

I don't remember if I screamed or not, I don't remember if I just stood there or cried. All I remember is her eyes when she left and how Elwin dragged all the sobbing people out of the room.

I think I punched him when he tried to get me out, and I think I was sedated. But All I knew for sure was that I had just lost the love of my life.