A Beautiful Sin{Complete}

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"Lust is what I speak tonight,
Lust is what I see tonight,
Lust is what I feel tonight,
And I Lust You.

Show me your Body
inside out...
no clothes on,
no holds barred...
bit by bit,
part by part,
give me your smells,
and your sweat...
give me what all you have
every naked bit of yours,
I want to see All of yours.

feel my hands
feel my legs
feel my torso
my body begs...

Come on me
and make me wet
juices flowing...
feel the heat...
together, we'll
make 'us' meet.

If Lust be sin,
So be it...
For I am a Woman,
And you a Woman
How can I love you
and not lust you?

For Me,
Love and Lust,
go hand in hand...
for I am a Woman
and you are my Woman"

I closed my diary and sighed in content. Last night was crazy for me and once again she did it again. I had the most beautiful and vivid dream about us making love it was amazing but when I woke up, it saddened me that it was just a dream. Her body, her scent still lingered in my brain and I haven't even get a glimpse. I dreaded going to rehearsals today because of course she will be there and I know it'll be hard to control myself around her but that's not what worries me... I'm worried about seeing that so called "man"of hers treat her like shit. I got up out of bed anyways and got myself ready for a horrific day.

I parked my car as I pulled in the parking lot and got out making my way into the studio. I said hello to everybody when I got in and took my place doing some warm ups. About 30 minutes later, I saw Kenneth walk in and not too far behind was Toni but it wasn't the Toni I'm used to seeing no this Toni had a smile permanently glued to her face and was she glowing? I almost threw up in my mouth at the thought of what made her glow like that but why though? Why was she glowing? Why was she happy? All these thoughts ran though my head. She came over to us and greeted us cheerfully turn I saw her make her way over to me with a smile on her beautiful face.

"Hey Eva how's it going" Toni said

"Hey-hey Toni" I managed to spit out

"What's wrong sweetie"asked concern in her voice

" Nothing I'm fine"I said

"Well alright...you ready to get started"

"Ready when you're ready Tone" I said

"Tone"she asked

" Huh"I said

"You called me Tone...is that my new name"she asked

" Uh yea uh I wasn't really thinking it just slipped"I admitted

"I like it"she said

I almost had a heart attack on the spot. I really didn't mean to call her Tone it just slipped but I was grateful that she didn't take it the wrong way. We got into positions and waited for further instructions.

" Here we go"I thought about Kenny and his attitude

He walked out not too long after with a smile on his face.

"The hell he smiling for" I said to myself

"Alright guys we're ready...break will be around two or three about 30 minutes okay so let's get started." Kenneth said

What the hell is going on today? First Toni came in grinning her ass off and now Kenneth was being nice? Jeez I don't know wats going on but I don't like it one bit and I was actually sick to my stomach. I ran out the room and straight to the restroom finding a toilet to empty my stomach in.

"What the fuck is going on" I said

Toni was happy today alright I get that but Kenneth being an asshole? Now that just unbelievable and then Toni was also glowing and I knew why she was glowing like that and it made me angry.

"Eva"a soft voice called

I wiped my mouth and walked out the stall making eye contact with the love of my life making me go soft.

"You okay sweetheart"she asked softly rubbing my arm

" Yea-yea I'm fine just got a bit nauseous but I'll be fine"I said to her

"Eva are you single" Toni asked

"What" I said taken back

"Are you with someone...you know may be you might be um you might be pregnant" Toni said

"Oh no no I'm single I swear...i just got nauseous but I'm fine now I promise" I said

"Okay but just to make sure you go home and rest up alright I'll tell Ken that we can do this tomorrow" Toni said

Ken? That's what she's calling him now? Ain't this 'bout a bitch.

"But tomorrow is our day off" I said

"It's fine well just switch the days. Go home and rest up baby girl I'll see you tomorrow"she said

" Alright "

I did as she told me to and went hope but not before apologizing to the crew.

"Tomorrow is going to be a long ass day"