My Jerk Brother (AMBW Kris)

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Kris Pov

She walked closer to me, and I felt so  small. It was funny, me? I don't know, maybe it was because of how...starry she was. It was, her heart, her smile...even now my eyes couldn't keep from staring at her lips. "Hey..." I backed away a few feet, holding my breath, watching Pia's movements as the small heels of her feet lifted up from the ground, supported by her little toes, as her forehead reached upwards beyond my chin and the dots of her cheeks were shown to me. Her beautiful lashes, shut slightly, and I was stuck admiring every detail. Then it came. So, lightly, she touched me with her lips on mine poor translation...sometimes I mess up, in situations like these. Though it was only for a small amount of time, It felt like forever and I hated myself when I...didn't even kiss her back. What was worse was my eyes shooting even more open as I backed away, stammering, not able to even get a clear hold on myself. 

"What's...Kris? Are you—

And i just laughed out of no where. In the middle of it my breath got hitched up, and before I knew it i had the hiccups. "Was that bad! Oh no! I'm sorry, it was....my first time ever trying to kiss a bo—" Hic!  Then another. "I'm really sorry, I didn't..." She held her hands over her face, trying to hide the dark red tint beyond her skin, as she took my bad habit as protest. I wanted to hide more than anything. I should be the feeling like an idiot. And I was.  The stupid lessons I paid for didn't do shit, now. As if I thought it was permanent.

 "Pia nn-o I hav- the h-cups" I try to say every bit in between. "Yo-u, th-at—

I held my breath longer this time, waiting for the damn thing to settle down. That's when she finally got it "Oh my god, Yifan!" I could see her getting happier already, though I'm not sure that was necessarily a good thing considering she was only laughing at my...bad habit.

I can't tell you why, it was majestic. That feeling, when you...want to fly. I tried to put some space in between me and her, when I caught my eyes on her smile, again. 

"Pia, please...I don't know if I'm ready for this yet. I don't want to mess it up."

She blinked a few times. "What are you talking about Kris, wait...are you...nervous?"

I didn't know what to say to her.

"You're nervous..around me?"

My throat felt tight, and suddenly I couldn't breathe. My chest...my heart was stuck on repeat, playing the same beats over and over again. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get it out to her. I never, had someone that made me feel so close to them like this. 

How am I supposed to let it out? Her bronze painted fingers, spread out away from each other in a kaleidoscopic design; almost disorienting. As she raced over, the heels of my feet pressed against the edge of the building. I would feel scared, of falling. But right now, I don't know what to feel.
But I do know what's good for my life at the moment."Pia, back up please, we're too close to the edge." Her fingers reach out to touch my face, laying coldly at first evening out with the temperature of my face, burning with acceleration.  I don't even know if she was paying attention .Not that she was very good at it in the first place. I was so conflicted. Should I really be worrying about this...or....should I kiss, her. Maybe I was overreacting, I don't know. How was I supposed to feel? Is this what, everyone else felt who'd ever fallen in love? oh my god, she was getting closer, what do I do? I...why was the door to the roof open?
"...What are you two doing up there?" There was a a man there, the custodian. Of course, we closed the door, and he was probably scheduled to come up here sooner or later.
"I'm not doing anything." I panicked, moving Pia out of the way, when I tripped out of balance.
"Oh my god! Stay there--- P-Pull him up quick! Hurry, you girl!"
"Kris grab my hand!" Pia reached out closer, grabbing onto my shirt, as dragged me back onto the platform. I accidentally stepped on her shoe trying to get back, when she let go of my shirt out after yelping, then quickly,  grabbed for my arm. "Help me! Help me!" she screamed, as the Custodian ran over beside her pulling her by other arm. the door slammed, scaring the custodian, causing him to fall onto the ground, while Pia fell forward clinging onto my shoulders, spinning us both around until there was nothing beneath her feet but the air and the pack of students outside, watching as was dangling from my arm, screaming for her life. 

"Pia! Pia! are you okay? Don't let go! Don't!" I tried to pull her up, but I was too focused on...were hy were they taking pictures?  How  could they do something...like that...I saw it all, recording her. Why? "Kris please! I'm I-m slipping I'm so scared...please..." I saw the tears dripping out of the corners of her eyes, as my hands started to slip away from hers. I looked back, only to see that the custodian was laid out on the floor after banging his head on the roof ventilator. I couldn't save her alone. "Pia....Pia, whatever you do don't let go!" I screamed, almost...crying myself. I wanted to curse, I was so angry. "What the hell is wrong with you? You're just going to sit there and watch her die?! Are you all fucking insane! Help me!"  

 "Hey Yifan, when you're done her do you think you could go take me out for something to eat?"

"No, no take me to the mall, I want to go so badly, just drop her already!" 

"Yeah, I'm sure someone would catch her, don't worry about it?" 

" Hey, what are you saying?" 

"Oh chill, Rui, I'll be back before our date."

"That's― not I..."

"I'm so sorry, I can't hold on anymore! I can't!"

The door behind me was kicked open. Luhan came rushing through. I hadn't seen him in the crowd. "Pia, dont worry I'm coming!" He was just as terrified. And thank god he was, too. He ran over in our direction bending down as he reached down for Pia's free arm, dragging helping me lift her back up onto the roof top. "Are you― 

"It's okay, you're safe now!  What were you doing on the roof huh? Don't ever scare me like that again."

Luhan Pov

I was on my way to my bike in the front yard, looking down at the pictures I had of Pia and Kris. I was regretting ever even taking them in the first place. The only reason why...I wanted them, was to show... Quiyue. I thought that If I gave her the pictures, that she'd stop going after Kris and come back to me. She already had someone that loved her, and someone that would do anything for her. But, she'd rather leave me for someone else. I had no problem with him, i could care less because I knew he wasn't interested from the very beginning. Even before Pia came to the school. I mean what the hell? did she relaly thing that she'd be any different? Quiyue..out of every girl in the entire school that's tried to get with that pompous asshole, all those different looking girls beautiful that thought they had it all? What? did you think you were somehow different just because―well―that's not fair. It's not fair, to do that to her....it doesn't matter. What's past is past. All that mattered, was me trying to protect her. I waited for her to come down, holding the pictures in my hands. I saw her come out first, of course she was with another guy. Using him, just like she used me. And for the love of me, I smirked, not thinking about him not even caring after I put two and two together. I just kept thinking, how beautiful she was. How beautiful lovely her gaze was. I played back the memories of us together, not giving one questioning thought, when she started making out with the shithead that fell for her trap. I was just so happy to see her, that I didn't fucking care. But something changed. I didn't love her anymore. I wondered why? What changed? When did it happen? And then I got angry.

I hated Quiyue. Not because of what she did. But because of how she treated, Pia. She was sat there, recording her on the phone when she'd fallen off of the ledge hanging for dear life. Was this the girl that I asked out to prom, the girl i gave my first kiss? The same person, who swore, that she would stay by me and never do a thing to hurt me? I tore the pictures up and threw them on the ground. They weren't worth the pain. I knew what I wanted. I knew who I loved.

And  didn't want to see her die. 

On my way to the front door, I snatched Quiyue's phone and smashed it onto the ground. Never. I never want to fall in love with someone like her ever again.

"It's okay, you're safe now! What were you doing on the roof huh? Don't ever scare me like that again." I held her in my arms softly, so happy that she was safe and sound.

 But...she didn't look to me. "Kris, Kris!" She looked to him.