Zahara
I sat on the floor still in my night clothes waiting for Justin to come back into the room with our snacks. He insisted that instead of going out, that we stayed in and played a game that he found online. The only thing he told me was that it involves questions that we're supposed to ask each other. Initially I was kind of skeptical because I didn't want things to go south.
He came into the room with nachos that had some very great looking toppings on them. He sat them on the tray we had sitting on the floor and grabbed a bottle of Hennessy and two glasses. He was so serious about getting that damn drink. I'm not getting involved in this, it's not going to end well. I'll go home good and pregnant even though I'm on birth control.
"You can drink that but I'm not.."
"Why not?"
He had the most mischievous look on his face, I'm not ready at all. It's not even the afternoon yet and he's ready to turn into a fucking rabbit after a few shots of Hennessy. My back is... it's still in recovery from our first night here.
"Anyway.. let's start this game"
He picked up his iPad and pulled up the site that would be guiding us through this question game of whatever it is.
"So first things first. This isn't really a game it's more of an activity for us to open up and share things we probably don't know about each other"
"Okay. I wanna start by asking you a question first"
He handed me the iPad and made it clear that I had to start with the first question. I read the question in my head before reading it out loud.
"If you could change only one thing in your life, what would that be and why?"
He put his nachos down and brushed his hands off. This first questioned seemed to have him stuck.
"I would change the fact that I wasn't present for the birth of my first child because you needed me"
I know that's something that constantly bothers but he's here now and they share a bond that makes up for the lost time.
"What would you change?"
He sat the iPad on his lap prepared to ask the next question after hearing my response.
"The way I handled things when I found I was pregnant with Zari. I feel slightly responsible for you not knowing"
"You shouldn't. I should have been a man instead of ignoring you"
"Well.. you're here now and that's the most important thing.."
He nodded and looked over the list of questions. I covered the screen because he's not supposed to be reading down the list.
"Stop looking ahead. Read the next question"
"Okay, okay" He picked his glass up and took a big sip of his drink and it made me cringe. I don't know how he can drink anything straight.
"In a regular day, what do you find yourself thinking about the most?"
I took a deep breath as I thought about all the things that come to mind of a regular day for me.
