Reckless Fearless Careless | ✓

4-Don't Call Me Maxi

Again Max searches my eyes and begrudgingly sighs. "If that's what you want I won't hurt him but remember just say the world and he'll be in a hospital... but for now, he's safe. The things I do for you Ari," he mutters the last part to himself but I still hear it.

"Aww Maxi you're the best," I coo, pulling him into a hug.

"Don't call me Maxi," he groans but I can see a faint blush on his cheeks.

"Come on," I grab his hand, "Let's go back inside so Ava and Mason don't think you've killed me."

He just rolls his eyes but follows me nonetheless.

Soon after the boys find out about the whole fiasco and I've filled them in on everything they leave. Now it's just Ava and I and to be honest I'm glad. She knows just what to do when I'm feeling down and right now I need her more than ever.

I'm not going to cry again. I promised myself that because I'm not weak but the mere thought of him makes my heart pang and over the course of the night the tears threatened to escape more than once. I held them back though, I've had enough of crying; it doesn't do anything to soothe the pain so I d really understand the point in forgoing with it. The phrase Ava said earlier rang throughout my mind 'he's not worth it' but I can't help but disagree with her. I don't tell her this though even though she mentioned that phrase countless times throughout the night.

Crying is a weird thing for me. I've never been in that many situations where I've felt the need to. Sure my life hasn't been all sunshine and rainbows but it hasn't been bad either. I've had a wonderful upbringing and so many reasons to be grateful so sadness wasn't a common thing for me.

I've always been the positive one but right now I doubt I'll be able to keep that up.

With the way I'm feeling, I think positivity will be hard to come by.

~*~*~

My night was great. Ava was surprisingly good at helping me heal, especially considering she's never had to do this before.

We ate Ben and Jerry's ice cream to my heart's content; listened to countless songs about moving on; watched even more Disney (because Disney is downright amazing and always cheers me up) and Ava had me delete all my pictures of him and rid him from my social media accounts. I don't have the heart to block him on anything — I know, pathetic but don't judge me — but he is no longer anywhere on any social media platform I have.

She even brought a dartboard with her today (a little extra, I know) and stuck a picture of his face on it. Even though I hate violence it was pretty fun, not going to lie.

All in all, it was a great evening even with school looming in the morning.

Speaking of school, annoyingly, I've already had several people ask me about if we actually broke up and why but I chose to ignore it all. What happens in my life shouldn't concern the whole school, I mean it's not like my life is some movie or book for everyone to view at their own leisure.

~*~*~

Good moments can't last forever and before I knew it it was morning. Ava and I had both fallen asleep on the couches last night so I didn't have the best sleep in the world.

Ignoring the back pain that was inevitable from my awkward sleeping position, I get up to the smell of bacon and eggs.

As I walk into the kitchen I see Ava, Hugo and Alice all already pigging out while my mum is just drinking some coffee. "Morning sweetie, how did you sleep?"

Thankfully she knows not to ask about James, I'm so fed up of the topic and just want to forget it for now. "Terrible. Remind me to never sleep on the sofa again."

She just chuckles as I sit down and start wolfing down my breakfast. I love food like most people so excuse me for enjoying it.

"I don't get it," Ava says. "You eat so much yet you're so skinny."

I shrug. "High metabolism."

Hugo and Alice snort. "Even a high metabolism can't burn off the amount of junk you stuff your face with," my little brother says.

I narrow my eyes at him but he just laughs. Hugo, Alice and I are actually quite close, them being fifteen and I seventeen, we just like to take the mick out of each other a lot — it's part of our sibling bond. We tell one another almost everything and have helped each other through so much. Honestly, I don't know what I'd do without them, though I'd never tell them that.

"Plus don't forget I run," I add after Hugo's remark. That's another thing I picked up a few years ago. As well as painting, running is a great way to clear your mind, I have a feeling I'll be doing a lot more if that now, I mean it's healthy too, so it's a win win.

After I finish eating at a monstrous pace, I go upstairs to have a shower and get ready.

I rummage through my closet and decide on a pair of black high waisted skinny jeans, a t-shirt and a maroon jumper.

"Ari, can I borrow some clothes?" Ava asks as I dry my hair and let it fall in its natural wavy state over my shoulders.

"Sure, knock yourself out," I reply. As she's choosing an outfit, I start to apply my makeup, as usual, it's minimal.

Once we're both ready, we head downstairs and I give my mum a hug before we leave. "Have a good day sweetie," she calls as I'm closing the door. Like that's ever going to happen; last time she said that James broke up with me.

I ignore the sad feeling that's starting to appear at the thought of him and focus on the day ahead. It's just school, surely it can't be that bad. Right?

~*~*~