Hidden love

Chapter 12

                   ~Celine's POV~
I barely slept tonight. All I could think about was Rene and everything that had just happened. What if I lose the love of my life? My husband, the father of my children, and my manger. Maybe he doesn't have cancer but the thought of him having cancer is driving me absolutely crazy. On my bedside table the clock said 7 but it felt like it was still 2 in the morning. Ugh I hope RC and Emily are taking this well and I doubt the twins even know. If he is sick how do I tell them without hurting them? So many things raced through my mind and made me so afraid. I felt Rene turn over and face me and when I looked over to him he was awake.
"I'm sorry if I woke you up honey." I said trying not to sound in distress.
"That's okay love, you didn't want me. Why are you up so early?"
"I've been thinking about you."
"Celine whatever happens we will figure it out. We always do."
"I know that but I just love you so much I just can't see you gone." Hot tears brimmed my eyes and it was becoming very difficult to hold back.
"I love you too and I don't want to leave you." He said caressing my cheek. Before I got up from the bed I leaned forward to kiss him.
"Go back to sleep baby, it's still early." I say before leaving the room to go out into the kitchen only to see RC sitting out there.
"Mom?" He says to me standing up to walk over close to me.
"Honey what are you doing up so early?"
"Emily and I noticed the light on and I couldn't go back to sleep. She's still in my room I think she went back to sleep now."
"I couldn't either but speaking of Emily did you tell her how you felt?"
"I didn't have to she seemed pretty stressed out and when I told her she could she didn't. Eventually Em just broke down told me she wasn't going to leave because she loved me even though she's not supposed to."
"Awe, I knew she felt the same way about you but I had a feeling she was afraid to tell you."
"How is dad?"
I didn't want to answer that question but I knew I had to. I've already hid enough from them.
"He seems okay right now but he has to go have tests done tonight at 6:30 so we should know by 7 whether or not he is sick." I couldn't say the word cancer I hated that word. It was the thing trying to take away what I loved most.
"Emily's really worried about you. You might want to talk to her when she wakes up."
"I was going to. There is something about that girl that is really special. It fascinates me that she is only 19 and she is so selfless and telling everyone she loves them all the time. I don't blame you for keeping her around." I truly loved that girl of his. I've never really said anything about his girlfriends in the past but they all just didn't seem to care about anyone. It's like they were so caught up in the fact I was his mother and we had money that's all that matters to them.
"Well I'm going to go get the twins from your aunts later and I think dad is coming with so if you guys want to hang out by yourselves for awhile here I can trust you with that." I say trying to smile and be happy for him. This just kept getting harder not to have a moment and break down. 
"Yeah, I'll talk to her and see what she wants to do. Actually I'm going to go check on her now and see if she is awake."
I leaned forward and hugged him tight.
"I love you RC." I had to keep telling myself you don't have time now to cry.
"I love you too mom." He said before going to his room.
When he was gone I walked past my room and looked in at Rene sleeping peacefully through the open door.
I knew he couldn't hear me but the words just came out and a tear burned my cheek.
"Baby please don't leave me. I still love you and I always will."

A/N I'm excited to finally get to a different characters (Celine) POV! I'm going to try to get more out tonight but if not I will definitely have something by tomorrow! If I forget and I don't post for awhile please feel free to harass me about it until I do😂 sometimes I forget easy lol. This chapter is slightly shorter I'm working on making them longer!💙💚💙💚(my spelling looked okay but if it's not my bad😂)