OUT OF MIND / MYG.

TWENTY

i don't remember much.

okay i don't remember anything.

i'm scared.

the only thing i do remember is waking up crying.

and that was enough to frighten me.

"dr. choi!"

i raise my voice suddenly.

i hear no response.

i'm not in my usual room.

my breathing quickens.

"nurse han! please, i'm scared!"

lately, i've just been a crying.

and i hate

no

dislike that.

it makes me look even weaker than i already am.

but i can't help but cry as nobody comes to my rescue.

scared.

very scared.

"yoongi?! minji?!"

i try again.

i even hollared out chaeyoung's name.

"nari?! somebody? i-i'm so scared."

and it was true.

my heartbeat was thumping two times faster than normal.

my hands gripped the sheets below me tightly.

"i'm sorry for what i did. i don't remember. i'm sorry."

it was hopeless.

i am hopeless.

my heart hardens as no one comes.

my brain scolds me for believing they would anyways.

i cry.

i scream.

i fall back asleep.