Resentment IV

Chapter 40

APATHY

So what are you gonna say at my funeral now that you've killed me?

Here lies the body of the love of my life, whose heart I broke without a gun to my head. Here lies the mother of my children both living and dead. Rest in peace, my true love, who I took for granted, most bomb pussy, who because of me, sleep evaded. Her shroud is loneliness.

Her God was listening.
Her heaven would be a love without betrayal.
Ashes to ashes...dust to side chicks.

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I put a smile on my face when I go outside

My friends all see the pain I try to hide in my eyesAnd I try to act like I can make it on my own Since you've been gone I'm alone I suppose I'm gonna be here a whileAnd for the rest . . . of my life It only hurts when I smile..I thought our love was strongI didn't think you would leaveI think about about you all the time Do you still think about me?and when I think of how I threw us awayIt only hurts when I think .The first time I laid eyes on you you took my breath awayI lost my breath again the day you walked awayPain won't go and damage is doneAnd I just can't feel a thingIt only hurts when I breathe. And I see where I went wrongAnd I see what I've doneBut I don't see you coming home to meAnd when I look at it all that way It only hurts when I see.And I just can't live without you My heart is still in your hands And there's no "this" left to fixAnd there's no "us" left to mendAnd I guess I gotta live with itSo it only hurts when I live.I put a smile on my face when I go outside My friends all see the pain I try to hide in my eyesAnd I try to act like I can make it on my own Since you've been gone I'm alone I suppose I'm gonna be here a whileAnd for the rest . . . of my life It only hurts when I smile.And for the rest . . . of my life It only hurts when I smile