Last chance to make it(book 3-last book)(completed)

chapter 10

Since Gina didn't wanna sleep no more I just let her help with them files so that I can really spend time with her,Q texted me saying they stuck on traffic they might even go see mika so it's just me and my baby girl now, shes messing up my hair but anything to make her feel loved and wanted...im gon try my best to not do her like that anymore " mom fan I ask you a question? " Gina asked making nod my head" well why don't I have two dads like my brothers? " I had to choke on my own saliva " w-what kind of question is that?" I asked sitting up right, she shrugged " I mean Kam and Rein have two dads but me and quincy just have one dad it's just confusing " she shrugged " uhm - well baby girl don't you wanna visit aunt T for a minute? Taylor is around " I asked She nodded " okay go change up then come back" I said " okay but you still going to answer me " she yelled all the way up,i laughed damn I wish these kids could have just stayed up being at the age of 3 seriously them damn questions is too much, I got my stuff ready to leave while texting T

To T: I really hope you at home, im coming over with Gina

From T : I was just about to come to your place girl Taylor be asking me some weirdest questions you probably gon help me, so I'm coming over!!!!

To T: aight talk when you get here.

I sighed what's wrong with these kids though " G baby we no longer going, your aunty is coming over with Tay and
Kandi" I yelled, she said okay.we fixed some to eat since it's just me and her around the house, my other kids really don't like sitting alone with just me in the house so I figured Gina don't but I guess I was wrong Half and hour later T came with all her baby girls to my house talking about Devon and Q taking the boys some where idk we was just chilling as ladies trying our best to avoid the 'sex talk' for now though, it's so much fun having boys than girls really to avoid such talks *sigh*.

T came hours ago and left like 30 minutes ago after eating ofcourse, the twins are coming back tomorrow after church gotta teach these kids to go to church every Sunday, Q isn't back yet...Gina is finally asleep coz it's after 10, im laying on my stomach but it feels really uncomfortable sleeping on my stomach so I decided to just lay on my back and just watch some cartoons cause I'm not feeling too okay, im tired, irritated at the fact that I can't sleep on my stomach I miss my lil Q. Lay is asleep as well as Malaysia as much as I love having my baby sis here I have to let her go have her own space again even though it means letting her get her own place, and talking to Brendan again I'm just not okay with it because she's really being Naive about the situation. I sighed just thinking about it.i saw some light coming in my room meaning both my Q's are back" hey baby how was your day? " I asked lil Q coz he first acknowledged me " not bad,i saw aunt Mika she said she has a baby in her belly is that true? " he asked making me nod" it's true -"." I see how it is in here I'm not being recognized huh?" I looked at big Q" hey hubby, I was coming to you, wanted to give my baby some attention before going to put him to sleep" I said he nodded as I got up to take Lil Q to his room. I can't just come up with a name for my baby that's short because I like calling him baby...or lil Q, im just so used to it. after getting him to sleep I went back to my room and Q was in bed already. I tried sleeping on my stomach again but damn that shit is uncomfortable " you okay?" Q asked making me nod" yeah just feeling uncomfortable " I said sitting up straight damn " I think it's the period pains none serious " I said and he nodded. I looked at him hard his just not been himself " I was thinking that we have another baby?" I suggested, what I'm lonely, he choked " are you okay? It ain't none serious I'm just asking but fo'real though I want a baby" I said being serious. He looked at me hard then shook his head" whatchu want a baby for? You're hardly at home and we not there yet Meagan" he stresses out,i rolled my eyes" why you gotta go there? Look I'm lonely here okay all the kids are occupied with stuff, Gina is gon grow up soon and leave me alone you just don't get how frustrating it i-"." Quincy is still 5 -".why he gotta kill my joy though" lil Q is always with you or at school, just say you don't want any more kids and stop beating around the bish about it it's fine " I said getting way deeper into my covers, I want a baby what's wrong with that though? Nothing " you keep tripping every night man, I'm gon get me some pain killers you're a headache " he said I guess his getting out " whatever " I mumbled I wanna cry coz Q don't want no more kids with me coz he thinks I'm a bad mother...maybe I am none my kids like spending time with me though and it sucks. I felt a phone vibrate and all my phones are on loud so I got up to check if it's Q's phone or not, I looked at it and Kesha the old baby mama is calling him, why she calling him at this time of the night...I let it go to voice mail.she sent a message.

Kesha: I was calling to know if we still on for tomorrow? And where we should meet up.

I looked at it long and hard debating if I should reply or not but I wanna know what they on about, yes I don't trust Q seriously with her I really don't.

To Kesha: wifey is still up, meet me at industrial grill restaurant at 12:00 am

From Kesha: okay don't stand me up again this time,we really gotta get through with this before it's too late

I didn't reply and decided to delete everything from her,im starting to be really insecure with Q but who can blame me though, now I'm more suspicious than I was dang can't tomorrow come quick..and I'm going to work but I'll make a plan gotta get to the bottom of this.

Jasmine

It's good to be married again really and right now I gotta say that Bic knows how to treat a woman believe me hey believe me. I'm just glad my kids are able to get whatever they desire, a father figure in their lives but I'm scared that once I get pregnant his gon put all his focus on the baby than my kids while I'm gon expect him to look after my kids. * sigh* right now I'm laying on our bed just thinking about the future what the outcomes of the pregnancy gon do to me coz Bic stays out all night because of the kinda job he does, and he gotta come clean coz his surrounded by them bitches I used to work with and they don't smell nice at all man what did I get myself into? Really what? 

***** excuse the mistakes ****

I'm loving my story with its mistakes and coz it's confusing a lot for some people.