Project Unfiltered [editing]

introduction

"She's got bite marks on her tongue from all the things she never said."

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extended summary

The rules were simple: One year. No holding back. No sugar coating. Only honesty.

" Why it ended wasn't important anymore. At least after a few weeks.

Forgetting him gradually got easier but the moments that ended up haunting the most are the things I never got to say in the end.

Writing them out let gave me the chance to say whatever I wanted. "

Emilia Lockheart got dumped over text by Jacob Fisher. But her biggest regret was not telling him the things that she has kept a secret for so long. Every grievance, every unsaid thought was what haunted her the most after the breakup.

Now, she was giving herself an opportunity to change all that.

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note

Hi everyone!

As some of you might have read, this book started as a method of venting about the pain I felt after my first major case of heartbreak. It was really erratic and kind of confusing with it's few updates and it didn't have a clear direction of a plot. While it was meant to stay that way for a long time, I decided that I would try and rewrite this into a real story.

This is probably one of the most personal stories I have ever written so, it felt important to me to tell this story in a good way.

This book was born through a lot of really horrible episodes of overthinking.  Usually, when I laid awake at night, I couldn't stop thinking of him. I couldn't stop thinking of all the things I wanted to say to him then. And when I felt so lonely and sad, I just wanted to talk to him. But I couldn't. So I would a write a letter to him and tell him all the pain that I was feeling. It seemed really stupid at first but putting his name at the beginning made me feel like I was saying it to him. Even if I didn't have any intentions of letting him read the letter, it made me feel better once these painful thoughts made it way onto paper. That each letter to him symbolized something more.

Part of why I also felt the need to share this is because, I know a lot of you guys have loved someone, been dumped by someone, and well both. It is a big part of growing up so it's quite a pivotal moment, falling in love for the first time and getting your heartbroken too. You learn a lot from both experiences, so I thought I'd share my own. Sometimes I look back at this and feel a little crazy for sharing such a painful story but sometimes the ones that are the most painful are the best ones to share.

Also, to be 100% clear, I have changed all the names and some details in the story for the sake of privacy of the people being mentioned in the story. I hope everyone understands that. I don't want to slander my ex even though we stopped speaking a long time ago and I don't feel good putting him on blast. I still respect him and I hope this doesn't misconstrued as a form of hate or slander.

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disclaimer

this story contains massive amounts of cheesy-ness, over-dramatic events, and A LOT of crying and sulking...

you have been warned.

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