I try everyday
To fully live
As I did
Before I ever met him
But it's not the same
It is in some ways
I'm back where I was
Not what I stayed for.
I have to live again
For me
For everything
That he taught me
Everything he gave me.
But this time
It's harder than
I ever believed
It's just me
Stuck in a replay
Of the early days
Without his words
The hugs, any of his love.
