Sometimes it all gets too loud
I gotta shut it all down
Might take one drink
Maybe closer to ten
Don't know
Don't care
This inner voice
Is destroying me from the outside in
"Everything you did is for nothing"
How am I supposed to keep going?
He's trying to make it all better
Saying he still wants it all forever
Did he not see all this work
Opening up
Letting myself be vulnerable?
One of the hardest things he'll ever see
Isn't that good for anything?
Threw myself into being a better wife
After being eight days from walking away
Saying I'm sorry multiple times
Showing my love
Following everything my therapist says
Giving it all my best
Sometimes that isn't even enough.
Sometimes it is better to just give up.
My inner voice can be
My worst enemy.
