THE DEAL

TD- 55

Despite her puffy eyes the next day, she went to her office to work.

She checks her phone only to see that she received no message from Angelo yet.

She gulped and shook her head in sadness as she remembered that she and Angelo are no longer in a relationship. She wanted to beg him to stay but she knows deep in her heart it wasn't Angelo whom she wanted to stay.

It is and will always be Aga.

I drove by all the places
We used to hang out, getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss,
How it felt, the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine

Dawn is right. She is stupid for cheating on Angelo when all along, Angelo has been very loyal to her. She is stupid enough to keep on coming back to Aga when Angelo has always been there for her, patiently waiting. She is stupid enough to forgive Aga many times despite everything he's done and is still doing.

Sometimes I start to wonder,
Was it just a lie?
If what we had was real,
How could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all

But she is not stupid enough to make herself believe that she doesn't need Aga anymore. That she doesn't love him anymore.

She's hurt. That is something she cannot explain to herself and to the people around her. She's hurt that their relationship has finally come to an end. That Angelo finally got tired of her. She cannot blame him, though.

I remember the day you told me
You were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind,
You didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made  

She's hurt. She's hurt but she cannot tell it to anyone. She argued with Dawn and Vice yesterday and she has no shoulder to cry on right now. Well, good thing, Elle was beside her all night and kept on showing affection. She is not alone after all.

I wish that I could wake up
With amnesia
And forget about these stupid little things Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape 'Cause I'm not fine at all

She texted Angela that she cannot attend their practice today and she reasoned out that she's not feeling well plus the pile of works she has to do today.

Her employees looked at her as she walked to her office. It is very unusual for them to see her wearing her eyeglass.

It's like we never happened
Was it just a lie?
If what we had was real
How could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all

She checks her phone again and saw her wallpaper. She felt her eyes getting wet. She shook her head. She misses him already. She's lost a man who loves her unconditionally, who hugged her thorns, who accepted her with all her flaws and with all that who she is.

I remember the day you told me
You were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind,
You didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up
With amnesia
And forget about these stupid little things Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

She loved him dearly. If it wasn't because of Angelo, she might have given up her life a long time ago. Angelo saved her from depths of despair. Angelo brought the color back to her life. Angelo made her happy again.

If today I woke up
With you right beside me
Like all of these was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before And you'd never slip away
You'd never hear me say