So here I am in my room just listening to BTS and my mind suddenly wants to remind that I'm doing nothing with my life. I'm a 20 year old girl that still lives at home with my mom and no job. I feel like I'm just useless to everyone and I'm just THERE. When they told me in school that looking for a job would be hard I should have listened. I've applied for maybe
18 jobs and none have called me or emailed me saying I have the job.
And it sucks cause I want to move out and be on my own but seems like life isn't ready for me to be alone. Then college is just something I wasn't ready for, the money I didn't have then FASFA isn't something I can do since my mom doesn't trust the government with anything so I'm stuck with just doing nothing with my life.
But I'm still waking up happy and trying to stay positive as much as I can, so yeah I try not to think about how much I'm not doing anything with my life right now. I had a conversation with one of my friends and told her how I felt and it was amazing.
I usually don't tell anyone how I feel and just keep it bottled up but I was crying so much that day I let it all out and told her everything. She gave me some encouraging words and it worked. Didn't feel like doing harm to myself or anything anymore.
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Non-FictionNot a story lol my grammar isn't well enough to even write one. This is just my thoughts and feelings. Needed an outlet.
