May 2018
My school life ended officially once I was done writing my last board exam, psychology. I had a feeling that I'd done well in my entrance too. I was satisfied with all my exams.
Now all I could do was wait.
And think.
And think a lot while waiting.
I remembered all my conversations with Aditya. I remembered the extra-large chocolate cones we used to share. I remembered the way we used to talk about our friends. I remembered how his shirt used to be ruffled and stained by different paints. I remembered his untidy, curly, inky black hair. I remembered his playful yet arrogant smile, which used to be wider on the left side of his face. I tried to remember many, many more things.
But my memories of him were starting to fade away.
I couldn't remember the colour of his eyes, the shape of his nose and, worst of all, the sound of his voice.
It was like trying to recall the contents of a photograph, one which I hadn't seen for a very long time. Everything seemed dull and lifeless and glazed over.
I missed him so much.
Sometime during the end of May, I got a call from Karan. I blankly looked at my phone for a minute before swiping a green arrow across his smiling face.
"Hello," I greeted reflexively.
"Hey Ashiana, how're you?" His voice was quiet, subdued, sad.
"I'm fine I guess. How are you?"
There was a slight pause and I suddenly thought that he might be crying.
Or worse...
"Are you there?" I asked, panicked.
"I'm also doing fine I think," he said, not answering my previous question. "Though I was feeling quite miserable a while ago and I reached out for my phone to call...him...and then I realised...and so I called you."
"Yes that makes sense."
"What do you mean?"
"Well, we never talk to each other over the phone," I elaborated.
"Yeah."
None of us spoke for a span of time and I stared at the muted television, then,
"Ash I miss him."
My stomach clenched at that. I tried stopping it but a tear escaped from my eye.
"Me too." The words came out too thick, too heavy.
"I tried deleting his contact but I couldn't. How do I drag his number to the trash can? The same number I used to dial everyday." His voice shook.
I had deleted his number the minute I had stepped out of his parents house, the day after his cremation.
"I understand."
I didn't.
"He was my best friend," he continued. "And now I can't bring myself to say his name."
Despite my overwhelming emotions, I chuckled.
"Yeah, you guys were like two insomniac phone buddies. Talk about bromance."
"We were two insomniac phone buddies." He laughed as well.
There was a heavy pause after that, in which it suddenly hit me what I was laughing at, I'm sure Karan realised it too.
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