Jealousy Kiss✔[NEEDS EDITING]

Chapter 21 •

But anyways, I'd like to thank ViancaSolano23 for her awesome comment:

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•Mere•

The pain I am feeling is unbearable. I never thought love could lead to such a painful outcome. I never really was someone who dreamed of being swept up her feet by prince charming. Or who dreamed to be loved for all eternity and have a family.

But Gale changed that.

He made me want to be swept up my feet. He made me want to dream of someone who would always love me. That would always be there for me. That would have my love. And I wanted it to be Gale.

I know it is all my fault. I should've believed him. None of this would've been happening. I wouldn't be heartbroken. I wouldn't feel depressed. I wouldn't be asking Fred to keep me company. I did this to myself. I chose my own fate. I chose to loose the love for someone who I knew loved me as much as I loved him.

I led Gale to go out with Jena. I led Gale to forget about me. I led Gale to move on with someone else. Me and my stubbornness. I lost Gale.

And now, only days later, I couldn't take it anymore. I'd had enough of her kissing him. Of her rubbing it in my face. Of how Gale quickly forgot what we had.

I still remember when I begged him. The day I saw Jena kiss him. The day I knew I had lost him for sure:

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"Gale" I repeated more softly as the rain fell down on my shoulders as if it knew I was I was in pain. I stared as his hands moved to rest on her hips as he kissed back.

I heard her giggle over the rain. And at the same time, my heart shattered. It was torn into a million pieces. I felt as if it was stepped on repeatedly.

I don't know how long I stood there, but then Gale was leading Jena inside the restaurant. Where I met him. I saw him telling her to go in and after she protested, he came to me. His hands were in his pockets as he avoided my eyes when he stopped a few feet away. I didn't know what to say now. All the words escaped my lips. All the thoughts when I saw Jena kiss him. "Mere..." he finally started. Then he looked at me. "What are you doing here?".

I looked into his eyes which were void of all emotion towards me. "I don't know" I finally lied.

Gale nodded, looking to the side. His jaw was clenched. "So... where's Cameron?".

And I burst out crying.

"I'm so sorry. I'm sorry I didn't believe you. I'm sorry for ignoring you. I didn't know who to believe! Jena has taken everything from me. What was I supposed to think? I'm sorry, Gale, for not believing in you. I'm sorry-".

"Mere..."

"I'll believe you now. I want to be with you, Gale. I don't want anyone else. I... I love you. I don't want to be with anyone but you. I-"

"Mere" he interrupted. I stopped to look up at him. At the rain that fell on both of us. His face was pained and... confused. "I'm sorry... But I'm with someone else now".

My heart died for the thousandth time that day. "With Jena?" I asked, a little too icily.

Gale narrowed his eyes at me, "I can be with anyone I want. You can be with anyone you want. You made that clear all week long, Mere. You have nothing to get mad at me for".

"So its my fault now?" I asked although we both knew it was.

"Mere... I moved on. Just like you did. Now you're coming back? I think its time you moved on too. As you... saw... I'm finally with someone else" I heard pain in his voice as he said that yet he was still telling me to leave. Telling me to leave when I was saying I wanted him and no one else.

"With Jena?" I couldn't help but snap.

"She isn't a bad person" he defended her. He was defending her how meaning he wasn't breaking up with her anytime soon. Not for me, anyways. Not anymore.

"You know what she's done!" I snapped. We both knew it. Heck, everyone at school knew!

"She changed" Gale snapped. "She changed. She promised and she has. I'm staying with her".

I didn't know if I was still crying or if it was just the rain. My eyes burned either way and I don't think I'll have a healthy heart for a long time considering how any times I felt it be destroyed just today. I didn't know what would happen now. Or what I would do when I saw him with her now. But one thing I knew for sure:

Gale didn't want me anymore.

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I sat in my bed staring forward resting my head on Fred's shoulder. His hand had gone around my waist and he pulled me close. He was silent just holding me. He didn't care that my tears were on his shoulder. He was a great friend.

"Remember that time I told you I was gay?" he asked against my hair. I blinked still looking forward. "Remember your reaction?".

"I punched you" I whispered.

He laughed, "Exactly. Then you didn't talk to me for weeks".

"I was fourteen".

"Then one day you stood up for me from a bunch of guys and we were together again".

"Why are you telling me this again?" I asked.

"Because... I'm trying to cheer you up".

"It's not working" I whispered pressing my face against his shoulder.

"Hey, I'm trying" he said rubbing my back. After a long silence he laughed, "Remember you said you liked me and we kissed? Well, you kissed me as a failed attempt to turn me straight again?".

I couldn't help but giggle at that one. It was true. I had kissed Fred trying to convince him to like girl only for him to ignore me the rest of the day considering it was both our first kiss. "Yeah" I said softly. We sat there a while longer before saying, "I have to get away".

"Yeah" he said. "We could take a summer vaca-".

"No. I mean permanently. I need to get away from all this, Fred" I said.

He was silent, "Where would we go?".

"We?" I asked turning to look at him.

He grinned, "There's no guys for me either".

"Your family-"

"Its ok. They don't like me gay, anyways".

"Fred..."

"Where we going?".

"I have an aunt across the country. She'll be happy to take me in".

"When?".

"As soon as possible. I don't want to be here any longer".

"You sure?"

"Yes".

I wasn't planning on ruining Fred's life because of my mistakes. He didn't have to know I wasn't letting him come with me. Yes, he was my best friend, but I wouldn't let him ruin his life here for me.

I wanted to get away. I needed to get away. It was too painful to be here. The only way to forget about this was to get away. To get away and forget about Cameron and Jena.

And Gale along the way.

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