Dear... journal??,
Hii. My name is Luke Hemmings. I'm writing in here thanks to my dorky but lovely friend, Ashton, who gave this to me. He thinks I have something going on and wanted me to "deal with whatever it is properly". I mean, yeah I have something going on; I may have a teeny, tiny, little crush on him (Ashton). But, I'm dating a girl named Arzaylea and I'm pretty positive Ashton likes Calum, although he's never said that. My crush on Ashton has to stop. I have a girlfriend, and I'm straight. I think.
Um, anyways, here's something that happened today.
(Recaps in non-italics)
"Michael!" I yelled at my best friend. Since he was on the opposite side of the tour bus, he ran as fast as he could towards me.
"What?! What's wrong?!" he exclaimed frantically. I stuck my phone out and handed it to him, tapping the picture I was showing him.
"They posted a picture together. Again," I said, letting out an exasperated sigh. Michael's eyes widened and his face fell. His shoulders slooped and his eyes looked like a lost puppy's.
"Oh. I'm glad they're happy," he said trying to smile, but the smile just turning into a grimace.
"No you're not, Michael. You love Calum and you know it," I told him, rolling my eyes.
"I don't love him. Not in that way, at least. Good for him- being with Ashton, I mean- they look good together," he lied, his voice growing higher pitched. Michael was the only person who knew about my tiny crush on Ashton, and Michael happened to have a huge crush on Calum, so we both bonded over our similar situations.
"Hey! First of all, until they tell us, they're not together. And second of all, You're the one who's supposed to be with Calum, yeah?" I said to Michael. He chuckled and agreed with me, and together we found out where Calum and Ashton were.
They were in a small café and sitting rather far from each other, which was surprising due to the fact that they always seemed to be sitting so close in pictures and stuff. Michael and I went and sat down in the booth facing them. They're heads shot up and stopped whispering about whatever they were whispering about, and I could swear that Ashton's eyes brightened when he saw me, but maybe I was just hallucinating.
"Hey Lukey!" Ashton said happily. I said hi back to him and we all talked for a while. Everything was amazing. We were all joking and laughing and it was so great, but I guess it was too great to stay like that forever.
"Hi Lukey!" a shrill voice called out behind me. My entire body stiffened and I mentally vomited at the sound of her calling me 'Luke'. I didn't know why I felt like that. I was supposed to be happy she was there, not sick to my stomach.
I turned around and forced a smile. "Hi Arz. How'd you know I was here?"
"You guys are always here, duh. Are you ready to go?" she asked. I furrowed my brows in confusion but quickly remembered what she was talking about. We were supposed to go shopping together, which I completely forgot about.
"Oh. Yeah, let me just get my jacket," I told her. I looked at Ashton who was looking at the table, silent. I grabbed his hand, that was rested on the table, and squeezed it, a way of saying our own quiet goodbye. I took my jacket off my booth and stood up, walking out of the café with Arzaylea.
*recaps ended*
God, it was so weird. Why don't I want to be with Arzaylea? She's beautiful and kind and funny and sarcastic, so why don't I want to be with her? Why do I want to be with my band mate instead?
Wait. What?
I don't want to be with Ashton.
It's just a crush. Thats all.
Talk to you later:).
~L
Hi everyone! That was the first journal entry of this Lashton/Malum book, 'Boys Talk Boys'. I hope you guys liked it. Pretty much, each chapter will be a journal entry from Luke. I've always wanted to do a diary-type of story, so I was really excited to start writing this. I will update at least two times a week (most likely three) and thank you all for reading this!
What'd you think of Luke's feelings towards Ashton? What do you think is going on with Cashton?
Stay strong, have a great night/day/afternoon. I love you all x
-S
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Boys Talk Boys// Lashton & Malum// COMPLETED
Fanfiction"Ashton has spoken to me this week, which is great, and I think he's even been flirting with me. But he's still dating Calum, and Michael and I are just two humans pinning after others." A journal written by a boy named Luke Hemmings about a boy nam...
