Demon

chapter twenty one.

I stared at the wall as you were crying and covering your face.

I just wanted to protect you.

He would have hurt you.

Just like the rest.

You don't understand how much I love you. I need you. You're mine and you always will be.. "I can fix it.." I quietly said to you. You looked at me with even more fear in your cold, lonely eyes. "You can't fix it. You will never be able to fix it. I'm going to get in trouble now and an innocent person will never get his life back." You spat at me. It's true. I didn't know how to fix it. I only said it to try and make you a little happier. But I made things worse. I slowly walked over to you but you just kept backing away. "Don't be scared of me." I said. Please don't be.. You shook your head and just stared at his body with a look of sadness. I tried to pick you up and hold you, but you pushed me away. I tried again but you slapped me. I didn't feel it but my chest felt heavy. I held the spot where you slapped me and looked at you. "You're a monster." You choked out and cried more. You hit me. You hurt me. I didn't know what else to do besides just stand there. I didn't feel any anger. Or sadness. But a new feeling. A feeling that hurt me, more than anything ever did in my whole life..

I looked all over the room to see blood splattered on the walls. It screamed pain and agony. I thought about how he screamed and yelled for mercy. I wasn't feeling pleasure like how I normally feel when I kill someone. I didn't have a sick twisted smile on my face from how much pain I caused them. I felt disgusted with myself. I felt horrible. I don't know what this feeling is but I didn't like it at all. I thought about how much pain was in your eyes, even though you didn't get hurt and finally realized. I am a demon. This is what creatures who shouldn't even exist, do. It was then I realized how much of a monster I really am. And I will always be like that. Even if I am in love, or show kindness to you, I will always be a monster that will always kill. I will always have an endless bloodlust. This will happen again. And I know it because it will always be in my nature.

I shouldn't be here anymore. I really shouldn't. I closed my eyes and sighed, before picking you up and holding you. You tried to fight back and hit my chest and you struggled but you soon gave in and stopped. You cried into my chest and I held you tightly, hugging you. "I'm so sorry." I said. I looked at his body and saw scars like yours on his wrist and the weight in my chest felt even heavier. He was sad like you. And I took his life. All because I was worried that I would lose you. I held you closer to me and shut my eyes tightly, shaking. I'm so sorry. I just wanted to see you smile.

As we were hugging, someone began banging on the door and ringing the doorbell. We both quickly pulled back and stared at each other. "This is the police. Please open up." We heard a few deep voices say. "Just a minute!" You said in a fake tone. Instinct took over and I glared at the door, baring my teeth. But I snapped out of it and stopped when I remembered it would only mess things up more. You had a look of panic on your face and so did I, but I had an idea. "I will fix it." I said to you, dragging the body with me to your basement. "I'm so sorry.." I whispered to it while you quickly cleaned up the place. I stood in the shadows and watched over you as you let the people in. They kept saying how they heard screams and crying coming from your house and they asked you why you had makeup smeared all over your face. You lied and said you just broke up with your boyfriend after a bad fight. Then they asked if anyone hurt you. You said no. They kept asking questions and you kept lying to them about everything. They stared at you for a minute and nodded, saying how if anything happened, you should call them. They finally left and you slammed the door shut, sighing in relief. I came out and went to you, hoping I could still be seen. I still don't understand how any of this works. I really do think this is my punishment for being in love. But I deserve it for causing you pain..

"How are we going to explain this? What are we going to do with him?" You kept rambling on and on. After a while of thinking, I thought of an idea. A perfect idea. I took him and went to the middle of the woods and laid him down. I clawed at the ground so people would think a wild animal got him. You looked at him sadly and wiped your tears away. "What you did was and never will be okay." You quietly said. I nodded and my chest got even heavier if that was even possible. I don't understand how you humans work. I don't understand your emotions at all..but I'm truly sorry. And I know sorry will never do anything, but I don't know what else to do. I love you so much..

We left the forest with death on our minds. I tried to apologize again but you ignored me. Not because you wanted to but because I couldn't be seen again. It really is like a curse.. We went back home and there were your parents, sitting on the couch and staring at you with angry faces. It's one of the first times I've seen them even notice you. "You're in big trouble." They said angrily. You widened your eyes and looked down, avoiding their cold stares. This doesn't look good at all.

{please read:
hope you liked this chapter and let me just say thank you so much for the 200k! this is honestly a dream come true. ((i can't even function i reached the bright red reading level asdfg)) knowing that so many people love my book and knowing that some people's lives were changed because of it makes me so happy. i finally feel kind of useful in life because i'm sort of making a difference. all i want to do in life is save others. i just want to make them know that they aren't and never will be alone. and right now im doing that! im actually doing that. im only so young yet im changing lives. you couldn't even begin to imagine the happiness i feel whenever someone comments or votes or says to me "hey kris you understand me." i just idk i feel like im worth something because of you guys. im truly in awe at how kind people can be. yes there can be obnoxious, irritating people who don't get the true meaning of "Demon" and who get rude, but you guys make me forget about them and smile. and not a fake smile but a real big smile. i am and always will be forever grateful for all of my readers. i couldn't have done this without any of you. i love you all so much. chapter 22 will be out very soon! xox kris}