Phan oneshots

Wonderwall

"Phil, what the hell are you doing?" I ask when I see him with a cloth pressed to his wrist reaching for the bandages that we keep above the sink.
"You're doing it too!" Shit, he caught me trying to cover up my cuts. Why of all people did Phil have to be the one to find me like this!"Fine, it's exactly what it looks like. I cut. What's your reason?" The only hope I have left is that he won't try to find out why I do this...
"Dan, you just don't seem like the cutting type to me!" He protests.
"Uh, neither do you! What's your excuse!" I demand.
He mumbles something I can't understand, much to my dismay. Upon my insistence he lifts his head. "I like someone who can not and will not like me back." Now why does that seem so familiar? Oh yeah, because that's exactly what I'm going through. He can never know about my little crush, it would rip our friendship apart. I know that nobody on this earth knows Phil like I do. Maybe sometime he can find somebody that loves him more than me, as much as it hurts me to think that.
"Oh." I mutter. Come on Dan, now you made yourself look like a total idiot in front of him. Why do I always do this. He doesn't even know I'm gay.
"Dan, I can't keep doing this! I have to stop, I just don't know how..." He sounds so broken, so unlike the Phil I know and love.
"Phil, I heard somebody say that you don't want to live here anymore..." I say sadly. I don't know what I would do if he moved out.
"Dan, are you crazy! I would never do that! Sure, I've had my doubts before, but I couldn't leave you alone. You would probably end up rooming with someone even more insane than me, and I can't have anyone getting to know you as well as I do!" He cares about me? Best day ever, aside from the whole being caught cutting thing...
"Thanks, Phil. That means a lot." Definitely a lot more than you will ever know if I have anything to say about it... "Do you ever think that maybe we were meant to meet? Like fate or something planned this so we would become best friends and flatmates? I don't really know how else it happened. Chance isn't that kind.." Oh, I wish I could tell you everything great about you, but you wouldn't take it well at all. My life... yeah, it sucks.
"Whether it was fate or chance, we are here now, best friends forever. Nothing can ever change that. I need help, and badly. Dan, can you be the one that saves me, my wonderwall? I need some stability in this messed up life that we live. I-I understand if you don't want to I just-" Is this really happening? All my dreams are finally coming true, but I bet it's all a joke. Most of my relationships have been like that. Why doesn't anybody love me for who I am, not for what they think I am.
        "Yeah. Yeah, I'll be your wonderwall. I guess I have something to tell you... I'm gay! Don't hurt me for it!" I say quickly and hide my face from his reaction, the one I know will be of pure disgust.
"Why would I hurt you, Dan? I'm gay too, I thought you knew that. And as for the person I love, well, it's you. I'm sorry. I'll leave if you want me too, move out for a while until I can get a hand on my emotions..."
I can't let that happen. "No."
"No? Why would you still want to be around me knowing how I feel about you?" He asks sadly.
"Because I love you too, Phil. I love you too, and I was just afraid to tell you how I feel. Now it's all out in the open..." I feel exposed, like he can see every little thing I wanted to hide. It's strangely freeing, having no secrets. I never thought it could feel so good.
        He takes my hand gently and pulls me to his room, where we spend the better part of an hour cuddling and enjoying spending time with each other. It is now that I am finally free from every pain I've ever felt except for the one thing I have to confess to Phil. I don't want to tell him, but I have to...
"Phil, I guess I need to tell you something important. Today when you found me, I had made my decision. I was going to kill myself tonight, after you had fallen asleep." For the second time, I hide my face in my hands in shame.
"Why would you do that! I couldn't live without you, Dan! Please, please don't ever think about suicide again!" He says as he starts crying. I feel really bad now.
"I'm sorry, really sorry! I promise I won't, after all, I have my Wonderwall. You can save me and I can save you. I promise."
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        "Do you, Dan Howell, take Phil Lester to be your lawfully wedded husband?" The clergyman asks.
"I do." I reply assuredly. This is the best day of my life.
"Do you, Phil Lester, take Dan Howell to be your lawfully wedded husband?" He asks again.
"I do." Phil replies with the same confidence I had shown.
"May I have the rings?"
Pj hands the symbols of Phil's and my love to the man who is marrying us.
"I know pronounce you husband and husband. You may now kiss."
We melt into the familiar embrace of each other with matching grins on our faces as flowers are thrown. Yeah, this is the best day of our lives. We are each other's wonderwall.