Love Me Alpha

Chapter 21

“I’m sorry sweetheart, if you don’t want to its fine. I Just thought that…they would never harm you Holly, I wouldn’t allow it” I soothed her, feeling her blunt nails dig into my skin lightly as she wrapped her arms around my waist. I couldn’t help but feel like a jerk.

After she had calmed down my mate pulled back, wiping her eyes with the palms of her hands as I took note that she had been crying. I couldn’t help but feel my heart clench at the thought, the pain in my chest only increasing since I knew that I was the reason why.

“It’s fine, it’s just…I don’t have very good experiences with packs” she mumbled, taking a deep breath as she relaxed in my arms. I knew this was a chance to try and get some details out of where my mate had come from; it wasn’t that I didn’t trust her but I needed to know if anyone was in fact after her. The thought made me snarl, but I managed to keep it to a low growl as I continued to stoke her back and thigh in a soothing gesture.

“Do you want to talk about it, sweetheart?” I asked her, hope in my tone that I couldn’t seem to get rid of. It was hardly my fault though, my wolf was practically rattling in my inner cage to try and get some answers out of her.

At my question she tilted her head up too look at me with those amazing eyes of hers, a strange look on her soft features before she seemed to think about it. The simple thought that she was even considering it made me tug her closer against me, stroking her bare skin as the sparks between us brought pleasure and soothing comfort that I knew I wouldn’t be able to get anywhere but with her. I would have it no other way.

“It’s not pretty” I heard her breathe softly. I quickly shot her as reassuring smile, though her eyes seemed to take a dull quality that didn’t seem to suit her at all.

“I’ll listen” I encouraged, pressing my lips to her forehead as she leaned into the gesture making my smile increase as it tugged at the corner of my lips.

“Urm…I don’t know where to start” she admitted sheepishly, her warm breath falling on my bare chest causing me to shiver as my arms instinctively tightened around her possessively.

“I hear the beginnings always a good place” I smiled down at her, my paperwork long forgotten as I tried to lighten the mood. It worked, a small smile tugging at the corner of her lips  before she took and deep breath and began. It was fair to say that what she admitted next was the last thing I expected, and it put me in a full blown rage.

“Urm…ever since I was a child I was treated differently than other children. It started off with me being banned from going outside to play, next I had any toys I may have had taken away before I found that I was completely ignored as a child by everybody I cared for.

I was about 7 I think when my mother first hit me, I had tried to hug her but she had smacked me away and catch my face. I never knew whether she actually meant to hit me so harshly or not, but it seemed to be the catalyst which seemed to set everything of.

My father was next; he grew tired of my crying and punished me whenever I made a sign that I was weak. That’s how it started anyway, but punishments soon turned to whenever I annoyed them before they simply beat me for the fun of it. I remember one time when my brother, whose took the alpha position when my father stepped down, decided to class me as the runt of the pack. I was 14 when he first discovered how even though I was the daughter of an alpha his order affected me as well; it got worse from then on.

The worse was when he woke me up in the middle of the night, dragged me outside only for me to be surrounded with his close friends and the pack mates his age. He, urm…ordered me to stop breathing and my lungs collapsed and I was in a coma for four weeks while I healed. He couldn’t get me to listen enough to reverse it, but the worse thing is though that none of them cared that I had nearly died that night” she hiccupped as silent tears dripped down her cheeks, my wolf snarling in pure anger at how my mate had been treated. It made sense, how timid she was, how untrusting when she had come from a pack like that.